Poems

I'm Mute

They never ask me how it feels,

The questions always begin with 'why'

They never ask me if I'm okay

It's always, "You deserve it, it's your fault anyway"

They never tell me to talk to them about all this,

It's always about how stupid I am to think this way

But it isn't my fault, no, it isn't

I just listen to these voices all day,

They beg me to listen, they beg me to hear,

What can I do if they refuse to go away?

They tell me to stop listening to the voices,

If they affect me so,

The voices only seeming to get stronger,

The more I avoid what I'm told.

I'm just a girl, a girl who is afraid

I'm afraid if I get too close, 

They'll all run away

I'm scared, I'm scared of the judging looks and comments

They hurt me more than I've ever hurt myself

But I'm so tired of this feeling,

Of feeling so out of use,

They tell me I'm dumb,

And the voices tell me what to do

What I have realised though,

Is they keep talking only if I reply to their words

So, I've decided to stop,

From today, I'm mute