I Don't Know How to Feel

Ren and Jane

So, if you cared enough to read through my last part. Than you probably know that this next part is going to be about Jane and Ren. If you forgot and don't know who these people are cause you didn't read the last part or just decided to skip over it for some unknown reason- than you're probably gonna wanna skip over this because it's basically just me going to be talking about my life, except this time I'm gonna bring up my friends.
Ren and I first became friends during 8th which yeah it isn't THAT long ago, considering I'm a sophomore, but he still means a lot to me and I still don't know what I would do without him in my life. He's gotten me through some rough stuff, I think even without him realizing it. I'm not one who loves to broadcast their problems or talk about feelings, cause like.....ew. But if something really bothers me he'll be the first one to know it, without even asking. I don't know how he does it, it's like magic. Sometimes just seeing him in the morning makes my day, that big corny smile he gives or the cheesy jokes he makes.
Jane. She's always had her ways at figuring out what's wrong with me, and sometimes if I don't feel like talking about it, she doesn't make me until I'm ready. She's a great friend, and I kinda feel bad because she's not treated the best at school, even though she should be. I don't mean she's bullied or anything, not in a sense. But, she does deal with a lot of unnecessary drama and that makes me upset because I wish I could do more.
Right now let's just talk about Ren and Jane. I sometimes have issues bonding with kids my own age and making connections. Which is why most of my friends are either older or a little younger- such as 14 or 16-17. But Ren and Jane are different. It was easy to form a connection with them, their just different. Their easy to talk to and not judgmental about anything. And even when we're in an argument I know it probably won't last long because our friendships is one of the most important things in my life and one of the only things I really hold dear right now, so I would let a little argument ruin that. Of course these aren't my only friends but their definitely two of the most important.
Being a high schooler is hard. A lot harder than I originally anticipated. I mean it's not like expected it to be insanely easy but at the same time I thought it was be easier than it is now. It's not really the work that makes it hard, it's more or less mentally challenging. I mean sure I'm a teenager and my brain is supposed to be annoying. But like, I didn't think it'd be this annoying. I highly doubt anything I just said made sense. It probably didn't, but oh well- good luck trying to understand it, cause there no way I'm explaining it again.