Projections Of The Mind

phantom

can still feel the light touch you left, 
it haunts me,
the feeling crawls into my mind and
I can't get it out of there. 

I want to feel your touch and warmth
to help me through it, 
your skin on mine
and its the feeling I long

at night when I can't get you out
of my head
but now I see
that you don't seem to care.

your ghost in my head
has now been replaced with rage
and anger,

towards the one i couldnt stop thinking about
towards the person i thought would be by my side
the one who had all my trust
the one was occuping my mind all day. 

And i tried so hard
to forget you,
to get rid of your phantom in my head
but you just can't stop dragging me back
to that feeling I've been feeling for the longest time

and all I want is to be free
but for some reason
You and I aren't letting me

but your colours have turned a murky grey
after you gave me all the violet you had
and I want to give myself a new colour
but you can't help but give me the grey too

just so you can get rid of it
and get my blue out of your head.

All i want
is to be yellow
with no trace of blue

or violet

or grey

but I can't help it
because your phantom still haunts me 
everywhere i go 
and all the time. 

its there, in my head.