Turn back time | Yeonbin (PAUSED)

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"Yeonjun, if given the chance to rewrite all your mistakes, undo all your regrets, change everything, even this current moment, would you? Do you want to go back?"

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It's crazy to think it's alreedy been 7 years sense then. I can still remember everything as if it were yesterday, living with out a care in the world. Of course I was only 17 at the time, to young to understand anything. I was recently broguht up a question though, " if you could go back in time, would you?" That question came to me in my dreams. Ever since the event happened all those years ago my dreams have never been normal. I figured that was pretty understandable and I accepted the fact that they wouldn't go back. However even this dream was stranger than the rest of them. I couldn't really make out who was talking to me all I could see was one glowing green eye and the other was blue. However all day I have now been stuck on what it asked me, if I could go back in time I could change all my regrets, not make the same mistakes and not have to live with the the thought of if only did somthing different then maybe..

I looked out my kitchen window to see Beomgyu a giggling mess while running around with the kids. They looked so cute playing around the yard with the soccer ball. I couldn't mantine my chukles as I set out the food and then walked into the pourch. "Dinners ready" I called and then three grimlends came running in but right before they could get their hands on the food I pushed them back. "Wash your hands first!" I scolded each one of them. Beomgyu jokingly rolled his eyes at me and the three "kids" wahsed there hands, because even though Beomgyu Is 23, I still see him as a kid, at least by the way he acts.

Finally we set at the table and I handed each person including myslef a plate before taking a seat next to Beomgyu. He held my hand under the table, taking the first bite and I was thankful to see the sprakle in his eyes meaning I did good at making it. "It's good babe" he said before pop kissing me. "Ewwiee" both kids whinned and giggled watching us. "Oh sush it before I pull your ding dongs" I heard Beomgyu teased our little girl who had pigtials. I smiled at her and our son who was only a few months younger than her. They were siblings at the adobtion center and we didn't see a problem with having two kids so we decided to welcome them both in our home. We would never split them up, I knew what it was like to be split up from somebody you loved, I could never do that to anyone.

After dinner they helped me clean and was quick to rush outside but of course calling me with them. "Come on old man!!" Beomgyu and the kids chreed me out. "Uh, who you calling old man?" I hissed rolling up my sleeves getting in a ready stanse.

"Oooh he's rolling up his sleeves, we're in for it now!" Beomgyu teased me loudly, He was always screaming, even when we were kids. "This old man will show all three of you up!" I spat back and then the game began all of us running around like childern, well two of us were children but still. The sun was a setting like a golden color as smiling and cheerful laughs ran through me flashing back into memories

~We were all laughing, running with out a care in the world as school just ended and we wanted to get the fresh bread from the bakery. All five of us together again in the orange rays of the sun.~

The thoughts fled through me, causing me to lose track of the ball for a moment. Beomgyu and I then tackled our kids lightly and tickled them, their pure youthful laughs ringing aloud for the whole block to hear. I picked up the little boy and Beomgyu did the girl spinning them around and tossing them in the air as our focus completey shifted form the ball game to this instead.

~We were laying in my back yard gazing at the night sky and the beautiful lights shining in it. I looked over, our eyes locking his eyes brighter than anything else. Time felt still around us, nothing else mattered except for the boy next to me and his shining gaze. I wanted it to be just us. I wanted it to be us forever, but that was short-lived because right after the three other boys barged open the door with bags of snakcs and drinks. We giggled, now sitting up and all of us joked and told stories late into Friday night when suddnly he tackled me down tickling me every where. I couldn't stop laughing and the others just watched him toucer me. "Let go!" I cired from my cackle but he refused.~

"Its getting dark, let's get y'all washed up and ready for bed." I heard Beomgyu speak while pushing the kids inside. I giggled watching them complain about not wanting to sleep. "If you listen we'll make a fort!" Beomgyu bribed them which caused our children to start cheering, going to wash up quickly.

When they were done I walked into their bedroom to see Beomgyu and them making a fort out of blankets, pillows, and chairs.

~We stayed up so late, my parents were gone and it was raining, so in order to pass time we decied to make a fort out of blankets and pillows right in my living room. The others were gone this time, it left just me and him putting our heart and souls into making the best God damn fort that ever existed. He looked up to my eyes, smiling at the stupied jokes I was cracking. I probably had to much cafien but I didn't care. I was 17 and nothing else mattered but my jokes, this fort, and the guy that was with me, holding my hand tightly in amazement. Finally when it was done we crawled up in it while listening to the rain fall, however every time a boom of thunder would come, I couldn't help but jump and scoot in closer to the boy that was with me. My heart suddenly stopped when he out of nowhere, tugged me into a hug. I knew he did this so I wouldn't feel alone, so I would feel safe, and it worked so perfectly. Because of him, his touch, his gentle nature, my heart rate calmed down and I was able to sleep peacefully that night.~

I watched as Beomgyu cuddled up with our kids singing to them until they fell asleep. He then quietly crept out of the fort and we went into our own room.

I watched as he undressed into nothing but his boxers before climbing into bed. I did the same however I left my shirt on. I carfuly took off my ring but continued fiddling with it in my hands.

~The ring, it was so beautiful. He had a matching one to guarantee we would stay together forever. Up until the very end. Little did I know that the end came so sudden. Our time was cut way too soon.~

"Yeonjun, are you ok?" I heard my husbands voice from behind me. "Oh yeah, was just thinking" I siad and finally placed my wedding ring on the dresser before laying my head on my husband's chest. "What where you thinking about?" He asked and I chukled looking up and kissing him quickly. "Just about how lucky I am to have you." I lied, I did it to spare his feelings. I knew by the look he give me that he didn't believe me, it was obvious what I was thinking about. It was obvious because I always thought about it, but nonetheless he still excepted my answer. In response I snuggled up to him more. His body was always so warm, it felt like my personal heater. I could feel his heart beat, it was steady and calm as was his breath and it wasn't long before I knew Beomgyu was asleep.

I sighed looking to the ring that was sititng on the desk and repeated those words once more in my head.

"Yeonjun, if you could go back in time, would you?"