Andy's P.O.V
"Are you ok in there?"
"Yep. I'll be out in a minute" I said as I was looking in the bathroom mirror.
Rye's been up my ass for the past few weeks, I'm happy that he cares but he's making it really hard to breath, not literally of course.
I'm still trying to process what happened to me and I can't really handle someone breathing down my neck 24/7.
I'm looking at my stomach in the bathroom mirror, I can hardly look at without a few tears falling from my eyes, I'm pathetic! I can't believe I'm crying over something as stupid as a few dumb letters on my stomach, but I can't help it.
I just feel so weak and exhausted but I don't want Rye to know that.
He's already worrying to much and if he knew how I truly feel he would be even more protective, if that's even possible.
I've been looking at apartments for the past few day, I don't think I can stay at this one for much longer. First off Blair still technically owns it, and secondly I can't help but feel depressed every time I walk through the door.
Rye keeps trying to make me happy and keeps telling me everything will be fine, but will it really?
Life's hard, I've known that since I was little, but I never knew how hard it could really get.
At least I have Rye, even though he's been a pain in the ass for these past few weeks, he loves me, like truly loves me.
I never thought I would have that, I never thought that true love or any of that crap was real but it turns out it is, it truly is.
I took one last glance at the mirror before pulling my shirt down and walking out of the bathroom to our small kitchen so I could fix myself a cup of tea.
"Hey Love" Rye said as he wrapped his arms around my waist.
"Hey. Want a cup?"
"Of course!" He laughed as he kissed the top of my head.
"So I was thinking.." he said as he removed his arms from around my waist and leaned on the counter in front of me, "we should go out tonight".
"Where?"
"I was thinking bowling, considering you told me you could beat anyone at bowling"
"I did say that, didn't I?"
"Yep!" He smiled.
God his smile is so cute, the way his eyes squinted and his pretty lips somehow looked fuller than usual. Everything about him is beautiful and somehow this perfect man wants me, he must be blind.
"Sure babe. That sounds great"
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"Ha! That's the second game I won in a row. I told you I was great at this game!!" I yelled as Rye just sat there shaking his head.
We just got done with our second and final game of bowling and I (of course) won both.
I sat next to Rye and started to untie the ugly bowling shoes when a girl walked up to us.
"Hey" She said looking towards Rye, who already had his normal shoes on.
She had long brown hair that stopped a little below her shoulders, she had on a white crop top and black leggings, she was about my height. I have to admit she's very pretty.
"Um...hi?"
"I was just wondering if I could have your number"
My head shot up so fast I almost got whiplash. I looked over at Rye who just laughed, "Sorry, I'm taken".
"Well I don't see her anywhere, she doesn't have to know"
What the fuck? God I hate people who just assume someone's sexuality.
"Like I said I'm taken, and my boyfriend is sitting right here".
I smiled up at the girl who was eyeing me up and down. I started to feel uncomfortable in my own skin.
I could feel her judgmental stare and I could only imagine all the awful things she was thinking about me, "He's fat, he's ugly, he's to short, his hair is an awful shade of blonde...".
I finally looked down and started to stare at my own stomach, I know I should probably workout but I don't have the time. I know Rye is probably so tired of having to deal with me and wishes he could take the pretty girl's number.
"You don't look gay..."
I heard Rye sigh making me look at him.
He was shaking his head and had a frown on his face.
"Look just take my number, I have a feeling you're going to want it la-"
"Oh my god! Shut the fuck up!" Rye said a little to loud, "one, I'm not gay, but I do have a beautiful boyfriend that's sitting right next to me and you have the nerve to continue to ask for my number? Just go away I'm trying enjoy my time with my boyfriend".
"You could do better" Rye was angry, very, very angry.
"DON'T YOU EVER TALK ABO-"
"Stop Rye" I said softly placing my hand on his softly.
Why do we always in up in these kind of positions? Where I feel like I'm being backed into a corner.
I feel like the universe just never wants me to be happy, because the second I'm enjoying myself something has to happen to put me back in my place, to remind me that just because I can be happy doesn't mean that I'll ever get to experience true happiness longer than twenty minutes.
It's some kind of sick joke, I have the love of my life sitting beside me but I still feel like shit, Why can't I just have both? Why can't I just be happy? Why can't I just love myself?
"Sorry" he said softly kissing my cheek.
"It's fine let's just go"
Rye nodded his head in agreement, we went to stand up but the girl in front of us stomped her foot.
"No one likes fa-"
Out of no where a man with long blond hair that had a few tattoos, a graphic t-shirt, and black skinny jeans walked up to us and tapped the girl on the shoulder, "could you go?"
"Excuse me?" She said turning around and putting her hands on her hips, "if you haven't noticed, everyone in here wants you to leave, you're being annoying, and being disrespectful to these two gentlemen".
I looked around the room for the first time and saw almost everyone starting at us with disgust written all over their faces making me feel even more insecure, until I noticed that none of them were starting at Rye or I, but they were staring at the girl, who I still didn't know the name of.
I'm guessing she noticed too because she huffed and stormed at in a hurry.
"Thank you for that. I'm Rye by the way, this is my lovely boyfriend Andy."
The man smiled at us and shook Rye's awaiting hand, "I'm Harper, nice to meet you".
We spoke to Harper for awhile and actually got his number to hangout again.
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When me and Rye got home and were laying in bed he kissed my cheek and said, "you're beautiful, I just want you to know that. If you take anything away from tonight take that you're the most beautiful person I've ever laid my eyes on, you're beautiful inside and out, and that I love you so much I can hardly breath when I'm around you"
I didn't know what to say and before I even had time to think of a response he cupped my cheeks and kissed me on the lips before pulling away slowly,
"You will always have my heart Fovvs. I just want you to know that".
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Heyyy guys 😊
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This has nothing to do with the story, but I really want a girlfriend 🥺 like damn it's a lot harder than I thought it was going to be.
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