It was always you

5.

The next morning Beca wakes up with Chloe laying on her chest. She smiles as she strokes the her hair. As carefully and quietly as possible Beca slides out from under her and heads downstairs to the kitchen. She's met with all her friends.
"Hey shorty what's up?" Amy asked.
"Nothing much ya know?" Beca answered as she made both her and Chloe coffee.
"Any news on Jazmine?" Emily asked.
"Haven't checked my phone yet but I doubt anything has happened between last night and now" she says.
"Hey Guys" Chloe says as she makes her way downstairs.
Beca slides her mug across the counter for Chloe to grab. Chloe smiles before taking a sip.
"What's your plans for the day Chlo?" Stacie asked.
"Well I actually have a date in about three hours" Chloe says and Beca's heart drops.
"With who?" Emily asked.
"Tom O'Riley" she said.
"Well good luck with that. I've got some music stuff to do so I'll see you guys later" Beca says with a fake smile before heading up to her and Amy's room.
As she shut the door she felt a tear slip out of her eye. She was still madly in love with Chloe but couldn't date her. Mike told her she couldn't. That It'd be bad for sales. Now she's lost her and it hurts, a lot. She could feel the tears streaming down her face as she paced around her room. She pulled out her phone and called mike.
"I can't keep pretending" she said the moment he answered.
"Good morning to you too Beca"
"I can't keep pretending I don't love her. She wanted a second chance with me but because of you I had to deny it and now she's off on a date" Beca said crying.
"Beca you can't be with her. She hurt you once before, what's gonna stop her from doing it again."
"It's not like it's been the first time!" She yelled not realizing.
"What do you mean?" He asked and she sighed knowing she can't get out of it.
"When we first started dating back in high school she cheated on me with a guy I grew up with. It was the first time I ever wrote a song." She explained.
"Bec that means she's hurt you twice and you're willing to go back to her? That's not a smart idea."
"I love her so much Mike. I can't not be with her." She said.
"It doesn't matter how much you love her, she's not good for you"
"It doesn't matter what I say because you already won. She's out on a date with some guy" she said sadly.
"Can you come to the studio? I want to hear this first song" he asked.
Beca really didn't want to but she needed a distraction so she agreed. They hung up and Beca left to the studio.

She arrived fifteen minutes later and headed straight to the booth.
"Ready?" Mike asked and Beca nodded.
He pressed record and she began.

I want to go back
Forget that it's over
Painted in black
When you left me alone
I never knew, she was sleeping next door
With the kid I grew up with
And I can't go back to her anymore, no more

You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
No, I can't lift the weight

Beca's voice cracks with emotion as she reaches the end of the chorus. She could almost feel the pain she felt back then.

Put you in the past
Try to forget you 'cause it's over
And every time you ask
I pretend I'm okay
You're inside my head
In the middle of the night
When I don't feel right
I dream I can hold you,
And I can't go back to you anymore, yeah, yeah

You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time, but you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you stand on my shoulders and my heart just breaks
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight
Yeah, you lower your standards and I raise the stakes
And I can't lift the weight, no, I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, but you want me to stay
And you tell me that you needed time but you, you push me away
But then you try to take me back, my heavy heart just breaks
But, I can't lift the weight, and I can't lift the weight

You tell me you were happier with him, you want me to stay
You told me that you needed time but you, you push me away
And then you try to take me back
Say someday you will change, but I don't wanna wait

As she finished she could feel a single tear roll down her cheek.
"Beca that was amazing" Mike said.
"Thanks." She said as she left the booth.
"Has anyone heard that before?" He asked
"Nope. I always kept it to myself because I though it was too personal" she explained.
"I think you should release it. It shows emotion and I bet people can relate. This song would do so well" Mike told her.
"Maybe. Let me talk to Chloe about it. I don't want her mad at me because of this" Beca said.
"Okay fine, see you tomorrow?" He asked.
"Yep" she answers and leaves.
As she makes her way back to the Bellas house she decided to call an old friend.
"Hello?"
"Hey Chic, long time no talk" she said.

She spent the whole walk home talking to Chicago. She told him about the song and asked if she could release it considering he was the boy next door. Luck for him and Beca, they managed to stay friends after everything. He agreed so Beca just has to talk to Chloe. She told him about the deal and the tours. She also mentioned her breakup with Chloe. He told her about life in the military and how everything is. It was just like old times.
"Well I'm almost at the house and I bet the girls will want a movie night. It was great talking to you. Maybe I can visit you on base before your deployed again?" She asked.
"We'll work something out. I've missed you Bec. Hope you have a good night" he said.
"You too Chic, goodnight" she said hanging up.

She walked up the steps and entered the Bellas house. She saw most the girls in the living room. She said hi before making her way up to her room.
"Beca!" Chloe called running after her.
"Hey Chlo, what's up?" She asked as they both walked into Beca's room.
"Nothing I just haven't seen you all day and wanted to talk. What were you up to today?" She asked.
"I was at the studio because Mike wanted me to record a song. I actually need to talk to you about that" Beca said sitting down on her bed.
"What about it?" Chloe asked taking a seat next to her.
"He wants me to release the first song I ever wrote. That was back senior year of high school. I wrote it after you cheated on me with Chicago. I wanted to ask your permission before releasing it considering it's about all that" Beca said as she played with her fingers.
"Can I hear it?" Chloe asked and Beca nodded.

She walked over to her desk and grabbed the laptop and headphones before walking back. She pulled up her email where Mike sent her the song and handed Chloe the headphones. Once they were on she hit play and watched her. Chloe didn't show any emotion. Once the song was over Chloe pulled the headphones off and set them on her lap.
"Chlo?" Beca asked.
"Holy shit" she said.
"Huh?" Beca asked.
"I hurt you bad" Chloe whispered.
"It's in the past" Beca told her.
"But I still hurt you bad, twice" Chloe said hanging her head.
"Hey it's okay" Beca said reaching over and lifting Chloe's chin.
"But it's not Bec. I loved you so much and still do but I for some reason thought it was okay what I did and it wasn't" Chloe cried.
"It's in the past. You've made mistakes and so have I but there forgivable. Do you think I would've dated you again if I was still upset?" Beca asked.
"No" Chloe mumbled.
"Exactly. I managed to stay friends with Chicago and get back with you after everything that happened. It's okay" Beca said with a small smile.
"I still love you Beca. Please know that" Chloe said as she leaned to hug her.
"I know Chlo, I still love you too"