(Nathan's POV)
After an hour we finally arrived at the little flat on a beach and had gotten settled in. I was so worried that they'd screw something up but so far everything looks quite charming. It has a warm, cozy living room and kitchenette/bar. There are three rooms; the master, the music room, and the gym/spa. Everything seems perfect for a couple's getaway. Though we're not a couple by any means, yet. Jay and I lie down on our bed.
"Thank you so very much. This is the best thing ever." Jay says in a soothing monotone anyone would fall asleep to. "Anything for the man who saved me from who knows what." I braid Jay's long, curly hair. "C'mon Nathy, we all know 'what', don't pretend you don't." Jay snapped. My throat began to burn as tears threatened to fall. "Maybe I want to pretend! Do you have any idea how t feels to know you're not strong enough to fight your own fight. I almost got raped by a fucking girl! But no, you have no freaking idea how it feels! You could have easily thrown her a-around all d-day! Y'know w-what? I-I'm go-oing ou-out f-for a *hiccup* a bi-it," I sob hysterically.
I hate myself for being so weak. Jay needs someone to protect him, he's always protecting someone else. No one sees it, well he thinks no one sees it.
I walked out the flat and ran, I needed to clear my mind while I think, ironic isn't it? I begin to lose my self with each step I take.
Why does Jay have to say those sort of things? I knew he would ruin things again, why couldn't he just keep his damn mouth shut. If he wouldn't have opened his mouth in the first place I wouldn't be a fag. Wait, no I'm not bent, I just love him as a best mate. Well, I do like his kisses. And holding him, and his voice. No, just shut up you fag! God, why do I even bother with Jay! I continue to argue with myself until I black out
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The Band Broke Up (First Book in The Jaythan Series)
FanfictionJay has been Gay for about a year now and he can't stop thinking about his bandmate Nathan Sykes. Unfortunately Nathan's straight and the band, The WANTED, has finished there very last concert. Can Jay tell his biggest secret to Nathan? What would N...
