My Mafia Prince

10

**Song goes hard**

ATHENA

Fuck everything. Fuck my life.

Has something good ever happen then out of nowhere, shit gets fucked up? Well I'm currently at that stage right now.

Not even a week ago, I moved out of a shitty ass place to a good one. Then I get fucking shot and heartbroken.

I've physically and mentally changed through the recent experience I've had and I'm telling you right now, I don't like the new me.

The one that doesn't care about nothing.

Ever since I came back to Alessandro's place (two days ago) I locked myself up. I did not want to see anybody. I'm tired of everyone's shit, I'm tired of life. If God keeps giving me these challenges, he might as well just take my life away.

"Athena, please let me in." I hear the Devil himself speak from outside the door. I just ignored him because he is something I shouldn't spend my energy on. "Let me at least give you some food, you haven't eaten in two days,"...

"Athena I'm fucking done with this shit! Stop being a fucking child and open the door!" He suddenly yells and I scoff. I walk up towards the door and open it, revealing a very stressed Sandro.

"What. The. Fuck. DO you want!"

"I want you to stop acting like a fucking bitch and stop hiding yourself from the world!" He yells, as if he wasn't in the wrong.

"I don't know who you think you're talking to but I swear to fucking God, I'm not in the mood to argue with a pussy ass bitch!" I roll my eyes before slamming the door in his face.

I guess I failed because his hand stop the door from closing. "WHo the fuck are you calling a 'pussy ass bitch'? Micia"

"First of all, what the fuck does Micia mean and I am calling you a pussy ass bitch because you are!"

"It means your a pussy for running away!" He shouts and my anger just escalated.

"I'm the pussy?! I'm the fucking pussy? Who was the one that kicked me out because they were so pussy whipped for a bitch that clearly doesn't give a shit about you?" I'm am beyond irritated with this bafoon in front me. "Don't fucking call her that. Watch your fucking mouth." Something in his voice scared the shit out of me.

"So she ain't a bitch. Please! Explain how she ain't a bitch huh? She fucked you over many times, she cheated on you, she uses you for money! The list just goes on and o-" He suddenly cuts me of by cornering me and wrapping his hands around my throat.

I swear I was laughing while he was choking me.

I'm actually a psychopath what the fuck?

I was just happy that I made him angry, that I'm making him feel how I felt.

"Yea, just fucking kill me right now. You'll be doing both of us a favor." I gritted out through the lack of air that was coming through me.

I saw a look of hurt, guilt, and confusion in him. He slowly let his hands unwrap around my neck and I took this moment to finally catch my breath.

"You weren't scared," He slowly says.

"You were ready for me to just end you right there." He continues.

"You really wanted me to end your life right there didn't you?" He concludes and I shrugged. I really wouldn't have cared if he did. Actually, I preferred if he did. "Athena," He says while slowly walking up to me, "Please, don't tell me you're giving up on life?" He says as his thumb tries to trace my jaw, but I step back not wanting to feel his touch.

"I gave up a long time ago. What's the fucking point of living if you're just gonna die anyways?" I ask while walking back to my bed. "I don't know what the hell you're talking about but there's so much to fucking live for. Life would've never gave me you and Blythe in it even though Blythe is a pain in the ass, it would've never gave me Lorenzo!"

"For fucks sake's Sandro, How could you say life gave you me in it if you don't want me anyways?!"

"And how the fuck would you know if I didn't want you in it?" He wasn't fucking serious.

"Oh? I don't fucking know! Maybe that day where you kicked me out like I WASN'T WORTH SHIT!" Fuckkkkkkkk this shit.

"I had no fucking choice okay! I know it was fucked at the time and you need to fucking understand that I made a dumb decision."

"Damn right you fucking did," I mumbled out and he just glared at me. "You don't understand, Ella means a lot to me-"

"And what about me? Do I mean a lot to you? Am I worth something to you? Because this is the first time I've been a fucking mess! The first time I let out my emotions. The first fucking time I acted on my feelings! So I'm fucking sorry that I have no value towards you but you made a pretty big impact on my life!" I didn't know the tears that were falling from my eyes but that wasn't important. What was important is that I basically just told him I had feelings for him.

"Just get out and leave me alone." I whimpered but he didn't leave. He just stared at me with so much intensity, like I was the only girl in the world. "You want me?" He whispers out, as if he was afraid of what he was saying.

"I mean, it's pretty obvious, isn't it? Like why would I look at you the way I do? Or get effected by what you say or do to me? Or-" I was cut off by his lips crashing into mine.

Wait a minute

He just stole my first kiss. But I was kind of enjoying it. Our lips moved in this perfect harmony, but was also mixed with pain and anger.

Perfect combination for the both us

"sei così fottutamente bello" He muttered in our kiss. I didn't understand what he said, but for some reason it made my stomach turned and my lower region filled with heat.

Ouu.

"Fanculo" This is getting me too hot, so hot that I had to pull back. "Shit." I murmured.

I placed my fingertip on my lips, still remembering our moment. "That was too real." I heard him whisper.

"Well that was quite a show," I hear the one and only

Ella