-S H I P S

[1] Chapter

[1] Chapter

In this world... Nothing is permanent.

All the things that surrounds us are all temporary. Even your family...

As time goes by, I feel like I'm just a decoration here in this world.

I'm Silvanna Kairah Vanguard. A girl with no family and even friends. I have a relatives that supports me in my study and the one who gave me allowance but I don't treat them as my family. It is because they only see me as a potential CEO for their company! That's why they gave me an allowance and deposits big amount of money in my bank account. They will just use me as an instrument for the sake of their business.

They're currently in Taiwan now while me? Nandito lang sa Pilipinas. Never pa akong nakapunta ng ibang bansa. Kahit marami akong pera sa bank account ko hindi ko parin ginagastos for future use. Baka hindi natin alam na tatraydorin lang ako ng mga bruhildang iyon. When I say bruhilda iyon 'yong mga anak ni tita Day.

Mabait naman si tita pero iyong mga anak niya ang parang may topak. Lahat nalang ginagawa ko ay mali para sa kanilang paningin. I know that they are just jealous of me and I don't give a shit. Minsan nga ay pinagkakaisahan nila ako at dahil wala naman akong kakampi ay tatahimik na lamang ako.

There are times that they will frame me up and I have no choice but to take all the blames. It's just useless kung lalaban ako at sasabihin ang totoo kasi in the end of the day ay wala namang maniniwala sa akin dahil sa kanilang paningin, masama akong tao at hindi maganda ang ugali ko. Inaamin ko na hindi maganda ang ugali ko pero hindi ako masamang tao.

While in school? I'm one of the top students that excel not only in academic but also in sports. I have classmates but I don't have friends.

There are some people that are trying to hang out with me and trying to become my friend but I'm the one who will reject and ignore them. It is because I'm traumatized. I had a friend, or should I say best friend. I love her and treat her as my real sister and a family. Siya lang ang itinuri kung pamilya pero ano ang ginawa niya? She betrayed me. And take note! It is all because of our grades! At doon ko lang nalaman na kaya niya ako kinaibigan dahil sa grades! Imagine? I treat her as a sister but she treat me as a material for her own success. To surpass me.

They are all the same! They will just use me for their own sake! They don't even care with my feelings! The pains! The traumas! The sufferings! The aches! The damages!

The tears that I wasted because of their doings...

They broke me...

They made me a cold-hearted one...

They made me numb...

They destroyed myself...

They shattered me into pieces...

They made me feel lonely...

Sad...

Useless...

Worthless...

Rejected...

That made me realize that my life is full of shits...

That's my life...

But it looks like God has a purpose and that makes my life turn up-side-down.

That's when my true life begin...

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