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Jeongin's P.O.V

"Are you hanging out with Changbin-Hyung again today?" Felix nodded, a tint of pink covering his cheeks as he smiled. "You guys are so cute." I cooed. "You wanna know who's super cute? You and Hyung." "We aren't a thing! Stop doing that!" Felix smiled, pointing at me. "It will happen. My JeongChan ship shall sail and you two are going to thank me." I rolled my eyes, jumping off his bed and walking out of his room. "In your dreams."

I walked into the kitchen, greeting Mrs. Lee. "Good morning" She smiled at me. "Good morning, Jeongin." She smiled as she handed me a plate with an omelette and sausages. "Oh my gosh this looks so yummy!" I squealed, going to sit down at the table. I heard her chuckle as Chan walked into the kitchen, Felix not far behind. "Morning, mom." They both greeted her, taking their food and sitting down around me.

"Do you boys have any plans for the day?" She questioned us as she joined us all at the table. "I'm spending time with Changbin again." Felix smiled widely. "How sweet." She looked between Chan and I. "What about you two?" Chan shrugged, shoving food into his mouth. "I was gonna go to the park and just hang out." "All alone? What are you gonna do?" I shrugged, "Read, maybe. Have some alone time. Get some fresh air." She nodded, a concerned look on her face. "I don't know if you should be alone, Jeongin, sweetie. I'm not saying you can't handle yourself, I just don't want you to be alone. What if something happens?" I smiled at her, appreciative of how caring she is. She's always treated me as her own son, and I really enjoy that. It makes me feel loved.

She looked over at Chan who was stuffing his face with food. "Chan, why don't you go with him." He stopped eating, glancing over at me with a questioning brow. Quickly chewing his food, he swallowed before saying, "I don't know, mom. If he wants to be alone, maybe we should let him. You know, not smother him?" She pursed her lips together, shrugging softly. "I guess so."

"I'm off to work. I'll see you boys later!" "Bye!" We all shouted. Felix was next to leave the house, waving to the both of us as he closed he door behind him. Chan looked at me, shoving his hands into his pockets. "When do you think you'll be leaving?" I shrugged, walking towards Felix's room. "I probably won't." "What? Why?" Sitting down on the bed, I took out my phone and opened Instagram. "I don't really wanna go anymore. It's a nice day out so there's gonna be a lot of people. I don't like that." He nodded slowly, coming to sit beside me. "Baby boy." I froze, my cheeks warming up. I love it so much when he calls me that, but it makes me blush so hard, I get all embarrassed and shy. "Yes?"

I looked up at him, getting lost in his eyes. "I really enjoyed spending time with you yesterday." I smiled softly, nodding. "I enjoyed it as well." "I enjoy being your caregiver, too." He stated, his cheeks turning a light shade of pink. I could feel my face become warmer, if that was even possible. I was probably so red right now. "I enjoyed it, too." "I..." He scratched the back of his neck, looking down at his lap. "Do you remember when Felix told you that he would be your caregiver until the right person came along?" I nodded slowly, wondering where he was getting at. Is he gonna ask to be my permanent caregiver? Oh my gosh. Please ask that.

"Well I...I was wondering if maybe...I could be that person." I smiled widely, nodding. "I'd like that." "Wait really?" I nodded, giggling. "Why is that so shocking?" "Well I...I don't know. We haven't known each other that long and I didn't know if that would be-" "Hyung." I interrupted, causing him to look at me, looking into my eyes. "We've known each other for years. We were just never close." He nodded, looking down. "I really enjoyed you being my caregiver. You're really sweet and caring, and I feel like since you, you know, are into this lifestyle as well, know more than Felix." He nodded, smiling softly.

Just then, a thought came to mind. What kind of Dom is he? Is he a Sir? Master? Daddy? "Hyung?" "Yes, baby boy?" He says that so naturally, it kills me. I wonder how I should ask this. "What can I call you?" He furrowed his eyebrows together, seeming to be confused. "What do you mean? You call me Channie?" I smirked, shaking my head. "Do I call you..." I trailed off, crawling over to him and sitting on his lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. His eyes grew wide as he gulped nervously. "Sir?" No response. His face is so red. "Hm. Master?" Nothing. He began to look me up and down. I smirked slightly, "Daddy?" He tensed up, his eyes meeting mine. "Ooh, a Daddy kink." He opened his mouth to say something, only to close it back up.

I smiled to myself, about to get up off his lap, when his hands found their way to my waist. I looked down at his hands before looking back up, gazing into his eyes. His eyes are so beautiful. They're so warm and full of love. "Baby boy..." He trailed off, his eyes searching mine, for what I'm not sure. "Yes, Daddy?" He gulped, biting his lip. "You know you can't call me that...Especially around others." "But why?" I pouted, reaching my hand up to play with his hair. "Because....Because other people wouldn't think good of that name. And I'm not sure how anyone will take it." I shrugged softly, keeping my focus on his hair. His naturally curly locks are just so soft, so beautiful. "I don't see an issue. Felix knows. He's the only one ever around when I'm in Little space." Lowering my eyes, they locked with his again. "Or is there...another reason?"

I noticed that his eyes darkened a little, which only made me grin. "There is." Chan groaned, "Why do you have this effect on me, Baby boy?" I shrugged softly, wrapping my arms around his neck once more. "You aren't allowed to call me Daddy." He stated, nodding his head as though that was the final decision. "Why not." "Because. You aren't allowed to call me that until we're da-" Chan closed his mouth, his cheeks turning red. I raised an eyebrow, "Dating?" He nodded slowly. "Hm...I don't know about that one. If we aren't dating, I don't know if I want you to be my caregiver." His mouth was just gaping. "You and Felix weren't dating!" "Felix is my best friend and he was only my caregiver because he's a caring soul and loves me." I stated, moving off of his lap and jumping off the bed.

I began to walk towards the living room, hearing Chan jump off the bed as well, his footsteps following mine. "But I'm a caring soul, too." I shrugged, plopping down onto the couch. I've liked Chan for so long that I want to ask him out so badly, but I don't know if he likes me like that. So, now's the time to find out. Chan sat down beside me, pouting, as he tugged on my arm softly. He finally stopped pouting and tugging on my arm, causing me to look over at him. There was a slight blush on his cheeks, which made him look so adorable. "I can't ask you out." He stated, not breaking eye contact with me. My heart broke a little, saddened by his words. "I refuse to ask you out this way. It has to be special." He whined. A small smile tugged at my lips as I nodded. "Okay, Channie."

He smiled before getting up and off the couch. "Where are you going?" "Nowhere." He shrugged, walking off to his room. I rolled my eyes, still smiling to myself. So maybe he does like me after all. This all seems like such a dream. Chan, the Chan, might possibly like me, and he might even ask me to be his boyfriend. But, at the same time, he might become my caregiver, which makes it even better. I love Chan being my caregiver. He's so sweet, so gentle, so kind. He's very loving with everything he says and does. And he understands me, who I am. He gets it. And I love that. Felix is an amazing caregiver for coming into it not knowing anything. And for being my best friend. He didn't let that get in the way or ruin our friendship. Honestly, I feel as though it made it stronger in some ways.

I smiled to myself, shaking my head slightly before putting on some random movie. I knew I wasn't going to pay attention much because I will be thinking about if Chan actually likes me, if he'll really become my caregiver or not, and if so, how it'll all turn out. I haven't been in a ddlb relationship in so long, and even then, the one I was in was so horrible, I don't even think I can consider it to really be a ddlb relationship. It was barely a relationship. But, maybe Chan can show me that I can be loved. Loved for me.