Most people will like at least one person, for me I like about 10 people at the one time and I just can't help myself I don't see how people can just find that they can only like the one person.
I just like so many people at once and it seems like I can be the only one. I like so many boys but none of them ever like me back so I have to have my expectations low, so I like the weird people, the ugly people, the type guy that could nearly make u gag. For me I have to do that because it's a 'need' to have a boyfriend, a boy companion that u can say yes I'm with him and he's with me, but in the real world it's not as simply as that.
My friends make sure that people know I'm available and hint to boys that I like them but like I said they don't like me back so bring my expectations lower and tell my friends that I like them but I really wonder do I? I mean I'm attractive to them just not as much as my first choices and I don't actually know them or what they're like and if they have a good personality and can our conversation flow. I think about these things but really the fantasy of having a boyfriend takes over and suddenly all the questions that I ask myself suddenly disappear.
Don't get me wrong I've had boyfriends before but they were more like summer flings. I want that relationship we're I post pictures of us on Instagram, call him when I need someone to talk to or just do things together as a couple but with me it's different I can't do it. We'll maybe I'm exaggerating a bit I can do those things but i need it to be exciting because I get bored too easy and when I get bored I stop liking the boy. I don't mean to do it but I can't help myself it's like an instinct.
This is why I like so many different boys keeps it interesting if I stop liking one I can carry on liking another and then I stop like him and like a new one and then after all that I get bored and go back to the first boy. It doesn't take much for me to like a person, a bit of eye contact, a text message, if they just spoke one word to me, or even me just looking at them I can like them like a flick of a light switch. So I guess u could say I'm conflicted about boys?
