Can I Keep You (Casper)

Casper Mcfadden

I had always been awkward around girls but i remember my first kiss with Cat when she used to live at Whipstaff but then she grew up and went off to college to become a teacher which i fully supported,don't get me wrong i did but it meant i wouldn't see her much or at all and soon she started to ignore me whenever i came to see her it was as if i was not real anymore to her i felt kind of like a used tissue but i don't dwell on that i have grown up from that hurt and pain plus Cat is happy i saw her with her fiance a few day's ago and they're getting married as soon as they graduate now i would be lying if i didn't say that my heart didn't tear up when i saw that moment when they shared a beautiful kiss and Cat looked at him  the way she looked at me. I felt my heart falling to pieces and all my butterflies died so that's why with Rose i am withholding my feelings because i know a ghost and fleshy relationship doesn't last because i'll never have a reflection or a pulse but if i didn't why did i feel my heart breaking when Cat said her goodbyes.

"Casper?" Rose's expression showed concern but i only strayed away for a moment and i hoped she'd not notice that but i  guess she pays close attention to me because i am her friend because she isn't open to others even i had to force my way into her life but how long will it before i say goodbye to her as well  i began counting down the days...hours...minutes...seconds...until that time which will undoubtedly come so i am preparing myself for the farewell and trying not to get close even as Rose seems to be trying to get closer to me which i can wholeheartedly allow to happen because if i do i'll only lose her faster which i don't want and especially don't want to feel again but i am her friend to the fullest and only want what is best for her and that it happiness which she refuses to let happen even though i have seen her beautiful smile but she has not let anyone but me and her father see those beautiful pearly whites.

"Wanna go somewhere?" i asked rose and she looked at me with one brow raised with suspicion "ye of little faith" i replied to her then a small smile appeared and we left the stairs where she usually spends alone which breaks my heart but i am there so i know she'll never be completely alone not ever. I flew her to the lighthouse i showed Cat i don't know why i did but i thought the change of scenery would do wonders for her "it's beautiful" Rose stated and i smiled but then there was silence because i knew more about her life and drama then she knew about me which i know made it a one-sided friendship but i knew it was better than opening up and shutting down when she leaves me.