𝐕𝐞𝐫𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐬 | Jikook

Author's note: 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚗𝚔 𝚢𝚘𝚞

(To my lovely readers). INFO AND DETAILS ABOUT THE FIC AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE.

Before anything else, and from the bottom of my heart, I just want to thank every single person out there who took the time to read Apathy and his Smile.

It was the first fanfic I ever wrote and published, and over the past two years I've gone back and changed probably everything because that whole entire story was so disorganised, which is why I'm thanking anyone who read all 55 chapters. It was utter mayhem, and out of those 55 chapters there really are only a couple of chapters that I'm happy with, however I wouldn't change any of it because it became what it is today, which is the starting point of something to look back on, perhaps the starting link in a series of chains that I, and hopefully you, can turn back to years down the line and feel anything towards it.

As someone who went through, and maybe currently is going through (I'm not entirely sure) some kind of depression, you get to a point where you've felt so much, it becomes indefinitely drowned out, washed out. You begin to wish to feel something, anything, whether it be something along the lines of pain or joy or anger; I was tired of feeling nothing.
So creating a character (somewhat) who physically couldn't apprehend or feel emotions somehow seemed to help. That's why this series is so important to me.

I know it's taken me so long to write, to come back to this, but as a writer I couldn't find it in myself to rush this process. If I'm going to do something, then I want to do it right. A lot's happened in the past 2 years. When I finished writing apathy and his smile, my depression hit the hardest it'd ever hit, and it took me a long time to get back into a loop. I fell in love with someone, had my heart broken, someone else fell in love with me, and I broke their heart. I lost friends, but found something better in the small group of friends who I'm so utterly lucky to have. I got into university, and entered into an awesome circle of miscrits who I adore like a child would, and I won't lie, some days my mind goes back into that dark place and these old thoughts that I've been trying so hard to extinguish come back out of nowhere, and I'm yet again subjected to something that I'd wish on no one. And I can assure every single one of you reading that on one of those inevitable days to come I will not be writing or publishing anything, because it's taken me two years to finally be selfish with myself and to accept that sometimes I just need a day to recuperate.

However, writing will always be something that I'll love doing, so just because occasionally I hit a wall within myself doesn't mean that I'll stop doing one of the things that I find solitude in. I said it before, on my wall and in other fics, that I'll never give up on something that I've started. Heck. I have two other fics that I've left unfinished. One could say, as a writer, I'm unreliable, and I know that.

All I'm saying, is that I'm going to do the best that I can. And to the ones who stayed with me throughout all of this, once again. Thank you. This one's for you.

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Once again I'm stressing the significance in reading the prequel. Under no circumstance can you read past this chapter without reading the first book, because it'll spoil everything. I mean, it's not like I can stop you. If you're just passing by and a little curious then I appreciate the visit, but I'd appreciate it more if you took the time to read Apathy and His Smile. I also tend to incorporate the music which inspires me to write a certain chapter, and you're more than welcome to listen to it while you read. Music has a way of communication too, and it'll show you more than maybe I'm capable of writing.

And a pre-warning: there will be 18+ content, as well as depressive and sensitive descriptions, and this time I won't warn you ahead of the chapter about what's to come because there isn't anything which I'd want you to skip. It's all equally important. Please, read it all. That's why I'm writing for you. I want you to indulge in every sad, and passionate thing like I did while writing it.

Anyway.

Past this chapter is the prologue. Past that is the official first chapter of VERGLAS and that's where it all really begins. I have no idea what's coming, so I can't really give away any prereading spoilers, but give or take it'll be worth the ride, I can assure you. I hope you enjoy. And if not, tell me, or not, or just disregard this from your library or reading list; I'm honestly just happy that I'd have captured your attention this far already. What I'm trying to say, is thank you for being here.

Kick up your heels, let your hair down (or if you have short hair like I do, ignore that and enjoy the breeze against your neck), and have fun reading :)