I hurt... but there are many times where I don't show it nor want to show it.
I fear vulnerability and therefore I hurt.
I take pride in remaining strong whatever the cause or however long.
I may be wrong but this is how I view vulnerability....... I see it like it's weakness (and I know it isn't). I see it like it's submissive (and I don't believe in submitting).
I see it like it's giving your power away, losing control (and I take pride in controlling every aspect of my being).
and therefore I hurt....
There are many times where I do, I really do what to voice my deep feelings but I fear being vulnerable because then you have a piece of me and I don't agree with that.
I want to be the captain of my ship.... my life. Sad thing is it's not always realistic..... nor heathy.
And therefore I hurt.....
I don't know, these are just my thoughts.
