Waiting for Superman

Chapter 16

I awoke in a bundle of sheets, alone. I saw a note on the bedside table, with my name neatly written on the top.

                My dearest Breanna,

        I'm sorry I had to leave like this, you mean the world to me and I love you more that I posibly could. A few minutes ago, or last night beacuse your reading this in the morning, I got a text from a blocked number telling me that if I continued to be with you that they would kill you. I can't put you in that kind of danger, so we have to breakup. This is hard for me to do, but it is nessecary to keep you alive. I love you with all my heart, so I have to let you go. So continue to smile and have a lovely school year. Don't be to sad over me leaving. Okay?

                        With all my love,

                                        Your dearest Noah.

Tears streamed down my face, and I couldn't see anymore. My sobs filled the room, and my body laied were Noah last was, his sent still there. I stood up and walked to my closet and pulled one of Noah's jackets off of the shelf. I put it on, feeling the warmth fill the emptiness inside me. I then laied in my bed, the sobbs didn't stop until I some how cried myself to sleep.

When I awoke there was a numbness that wasn't there before. I felt indifferent to the world around me. But then there was an emptyness that slowly came and took over me. The heartache was setting in. I tried to destract myself with twitter, but that didn't help it only reminded me how ugly, and fat I was. I picked up a razor blade that I kept in my nightstand, and slit my wrist 47 times. 47 days Noah and I were together. 47 day I woke up and I was happy. 47 days I felt loved. 47 days I didn't feel alone. 47 days that Noah showed me what it was like to live. 47 days it took for me to fall inlove.

I added one more cut. One day to shater my heart into 48,000 pieces. 

I slowly made my way to the bathroom, blood dripping down my arms. I rinsed them in the sink, the cold water drowning out my emotional pain and bringing me physical pain. I threw on a long sleaved shirt and a pair of Yoga pants, before walking out of the house, and down to a park. 

The park was probly a mile and a half away from my house, but I just needed to get out of the house. Walking kept my mind from going into that dark hole that was hard to get out of. I walked, and walked until I saw the bright red swing set.

This was the park my dad used to take me to when I was little, where I had built so many memories. It was kind of my happy place. I sat on the deserted swing set, nobody was around so I let a few tears slither down my cheeks. My brain strained to find something to focas on other than Noah. 

Suddenly I remember what Noah had told me just the day before. He made me promiss to not let anyone get inbetween us, and yet that is the exact thing that tore us appart. He let a death threat pull us apart, a person. He broke that silent promiss to me, he let someone tear us appart.  

No Breanna, don't think of him. One side of me said.

Text Him; tell him he broke that promiss. The other side said.

I pulled out my phone and fomulated a text

To: Noah <3

I thought we weren't going to let someone tear us appart. I guess I was wrong.

Noah's POV

That text broke my heart into a thousand pieces.  I love her so much I had to let her go, but I had to break a promiss. I felt so bad for leaving, and I was also affraid that she would do something she would regret. I wanted to go see her and hold her in my arms, to just let her know that I love her. 

To Bre <3

Do you want to talk? Ps I'm sorry.

She replied telling me she was at the park on Sothern, just a block away from my house. I took a look in the mirror, making sure my eyes weren't all red from crying, and walked out the door. 

At the park it was hard to spot her, but the stiffled sobbs were baraly audable. She is wearing a Long sleaved shirt, she did something. I walked over to her, stood her up, and let her sob into my shirt.

" You broke your promiss" She whispered. 

" I know baby girl, I'm so sorry, I just can't let you be killed" I whispered into her hair.

" A life without you is a life not worth living" She whispered, before sobbs shook her body. She colasped to the ground, giving my a second to catch her. I held her in my lap.

As her sobbs died down I asked in a hushed tone " Why would that be?" 

" You are the only one that cares about me" she sobbed. 

" No I'm not, there's your mom, and your friends, and the girls at dance" I tried to think of more people, but I couldn't before Breanna cut me off.

" My mom is gone 9 months of the year, my friends are to into their boyfriends to notice my existance, and you saw the girls at dance they all hate me."  She said, she was right, no one except me was close to her. She slowly stopped sobbing, and pulled herself onto a swing set.

I sat  at the swing next to the one she was sat on, and asked " So what now?"

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Author's note:

Hey guys!

How has your day been? Did I make anyone cry? What do you think is instore for Breanna and Noah? 

I'm going to see 5 Seconds of Summer tomorrow!! I'm really exctied I haven't been to a concert since I was 8 and that was Hannah Montana.  But i doubt you all care...

Love y'all!

-Breanna