Mile Love

CHAPTER I

I'm busy scrolling on my news feed when I saw my crush's new post. May bago siyang post na picture with the caption says "together, forever".

Okay. Sila na pala.

I never thought magugustuhan ni Barry si Amanda. Everybody knows that she's a sl*t. At si Barry sa pagkakakilala ko, he's a serious type of guy, an ideal one, kaya nga naging crush ko yan eh. I just couldn't believe na pinatulan siya ni Barry. Pano ba naman kasi, itong si Amanda every week iba iba yung boyfriend, akala mo naman kung sinong maganda. I'm not bitter  kasi sila na nung crush ko ha, wala lang naman sakin yun. Di ako katulad ng ibang mga babae na halos magluksa kapag nalaman nilang taken na mga crush nila. For Pete's sake, how come na iiyakan nila yung mga crush nila kung in the first place, it's just a crush? It's not love. 

Well I don't think iiyak ako dahil sa 'pag-ibig'. Isa pa, di pa ako naiinlove, yes I do have a lot of crushes, paiba iba nga araw araw eh. Wala naman yatang masama dun diba? It's just a crush anyway. Hindi ko pa nasusubukang magmahal. At wala akong balak magmahal. Sakit lang yan sa ulo.

*chat box beeps*

Tinignan ko kung sino yung nagmessage. It's our group chat at ang iingay nila. I tried to backread kung anong pinag uusapan nila.

Patrice: @Nichole Brielle guess what?

Leah: What?

Patrice: You're not Nichole.

Leah: Dzuh whatever. Just tell us nalang, mababasa rin naman niya ito. Di pa nga lang nagsiseen pero online naman.

Patrice: Okay fine.

Dianne: So what is it?

Patrice: I saw Barry's new post. Wait I'll  send it here.

*sends photo*

Dianne: Wtf? Diba siya yung crush ni Nichole diba?  Si Amanda ba yan? Sila na?

Patrice: Yep. And I didn't know na pumapatol pala si Barry sa mga pinagsawaan na? HAHAHAHA

Leah: Oh my God that btch!

Patrice: Pano na si Nichole niyan?

Leah: Talagang namomroblema ka niyan? Girl haven't you remember that our friend has a collection of her crushes? My God. I don't think broken yun.

Patrice: Bat di siya nagrereply dito? Baka nagluluksa nayun.

Am I that cheap para magluksa sa crush? No way.

Dianne: She's here already. Nagsiseen na.

Patrice: @Nichole Are you okay girl?

I can't help but to smile. Natutuwa ako because I have these friends na nag aalala sakin kahit sa mga crushes ko. C'mon girls, I'm not broken. OA lang talaga kayo.

I typed for my reply to them.

Me: I saw it a while ago. No need to worry. I'm not hurt. I have  a lot of crushes. HAHAHAHA

Leah: I told you. You're just being paranoid, Pat.

Patrice: Oo na. Oo na. Kayo na maraming crush.

Dianne: Damihan mo kasi. HAHAHAHA.

I laughed for that. Pano ba naman kasi, sa aming apat siya lang ang may isang crush. Pwede na nga siyang bigyan ng loyalty award eh. Grabe.

Tutal andito na rin naman ako sa messenger, tinignan ko na yung mga nagmessage. I typed for my reply to them. There were messages from other people I didn't know too. Most of them were my school mates, ang iba kasi namumukhaan ko,  bihira lang sa ibang school. Kung di nangungumusta, nakikipagkaibigan.

Kaibigan nga lang ba talaga yung gusto? I know boys. I never been in a relationship but based on books, movies at sa mga kaibigan ko, I know that their first move is to be friends with you tapos they'll make you fall at sa huli, iiwan ka.

Maybe kaya hindi ako nagkakaboyfriend kasi nakaset na sa utak ko yung mga possibilities if I let myself fell.

Natatakot ako. May mga nagpaparamdam naman, inviting me for lunch and trying to court me but at the end, kung di ko binubusted, sumusuko. How can they prove their love for me kung simula pa lang, wala na?

I'd rather choose to be single, than be in a relationship that I know sooner or later will end.