Tears Are My Friends

Down She Goes

I skipped class today

i slept until 1,30ish

not because i didnt wake up in time,

i didnt miss my alarm

i didnt snooze and fall back asleep

i opened my eyes to the white jailhouse ceiling,

went to pee, took a shower

washed my face brushed my teeth

came back to my room 

looked at my reflection

and died in the mirror

i burned out, sent the light from my eyes

and power of my smile into the reflection

and stood abandoned

im afraid im a shell now, 

with a downturned gaze 

and small smirk,

not of joy, 

but of comfort

i feel the coldness of my emptiness 

and it reminds me of so much im used to

and i lose my light in the dark that keeps me company

and i go without panic, or fight

i submit to it and accept what has to be

until im released 

or i distract