I dated a Sumpter

Chapter Three - Maybe

I couldn't sleep that night, after the party. I just lay down in bed staring at the ceiling, not being able to forget about what Jeremy did to me. He kissed me.

Why would he even do that? I can understand that he was drunk but he has never told me he had feelings for me.

It took me forever to finally fall asleep.
The next morning I decided to text Jeremy.

"Hey Jer, morning :) just wondering if you got home alright after the party last night"
"Morning Jane:) yeah, I got home fine. How about you?"
"Oh yeah..fine too. Uhhm just wondering, do you remember anything at the party?"
"Umm yeah, why?"
"Oh okay...anything special or like unusual?"
"Think so."
"Can you name them?"
"I think I kissed you.."
"You remember? Ohh umm okay. I was just wondering. Okay gotta go, talk to you later yeah? Bye"

I decided to end of the conversation as quick as possible because it made me feel so awkward.

So he remembered.

So...did that mean he did it on purpose? So many questions ran through my mind.
Later that day Stella called me asking if I could hang out with her and Jeremy at the skate park just down the road.

*at the skate park*

Stella brought a few other friends from school that she knew from the party.
Their names were, Vikki, Thomas and Chris.

Vikki and Thomas have been dating for two years now. Well, at least that's what Stella told me.

Apparently Chris has a crush on Stella and so does she. Urgh gosh. Annoying much. Like seriously, Stella can get any guy she wants, you name it. She's beautiful.

As you may know, I'm not much of a socializing person so I hardly talked.

Jeremy was running late so it was really awkward for me, just standing beside Stella while she was flirting her ass off with Chris. Vikki and Thomas were just making out the entire time so even if I was a socializing person, I wouldn't even be able to start a conversation with them.

As soon as Jeremy arrived, I wasn't sure if I should even look at him. I was shy, like really shy and unsure about how he felt towards me now.

Could have last night ruin our friendship? I hope not. Jeremy was my best friend. I really couldn't bare losing him.

"Hey guys" he said, in a confident tone.
"Hey Jeremy!" Stella smiled.
"Meet Chris, Vikki and Thomas, they're actually a grade above us in our school" Stella said, introducing them.
Jeremy smiled at them, and walked over to me.

"Hey, Jane, how's you?" He asked.
"Uhh fine, fine yeah." I said, unsurely.

Shit. I'm making it awkward, aren't I. Jane, stop making it so...ugh gosh Jane, just stop it.

"I think I need to apologize...about last night." Jeremy went on.
"Oh, nah it's cool..." I dragged on.
"No, it's not. I'm really sorry, I didn't know what came over me. Do you mind following me just over there, where the trees are, so that I can apologize properly?" He asked, beggingly.

He wanted me to follow him just outside the forest right next to the skate park.

Just go Jane, if he doesn't apologize, it'll be awkward for god knows how long!

"Yeah, sure." I hesitated.

He took my hand and we walked over.

"I'm really really sorry..." He started. "and I hope that this doesn't ruin anything between us, because I know we are really close and I don't want to lose what we already have...but, I think I love you, Jane"

"Whhaaattt...? Why me? Out of all the girls why me? I'm not even half as pretty as Stella or any of our gorgeous looking seniors..." I was totally shocked but slightly angry at the same time.

"I...I...it's not about the looks Jane. Well, at least to me it's not. But even if it was, you are the most beautiful girl I have ever laid my eyes on."

I looked away. My heart thumping hard. Why? I don't even know why. Was I feeling nervous or content that he liked me? Oh gosh, I'm so confused with him and myself.

I turned to face Jeremy once more. I took his hand and softly told him that I didn't want to change us, how we are now. Our closeness as just friends. Then I walked away.

He slowly followed behind. I could feel him staring at me. Uncomfortable was the word I felt.

I sat next to Stella, still flirting with Chris by the way. Vikki walked over to us, with a box full of beers. "Pass around" she demanded, handing Chris the box. He gave her a nod.

Chris passed a bottle to Vikki and I.

I don't usually drink, but since I didn't want to look weak in front of everyone I decided to anyway. It's not that I don't like drinking, just that I absolutely hate the after taste. Bitter and sour, all at once. Makes my nose tingle.

I felt a warm hand on my left shoulder, Jeremy. I felt pretty bad to be honest. Rejection is seriously the worst feeling ever. Ever. I know that. But at least we are friends right?

"Are you okay?" He asked.
"Yeah, do I look like I'm not?" I questioned.
He shrugged.

Hours passed and it got late. I decided to go home.

I lay in bed that night, thinking about Jeremy.

"He's kinda cute though..." I said softly to myself. "The way his hair falls perfectly over his hazel brown eyes and don't get me started on that gorgeous smile of his."

Oh gosh Jane. Are you in love?

No. I can't be. Not with my best friend. No.

I laid flat on my back, staring into space and Jeremy running through my mind. This was weird, really weird. Do I like him? What if I do? I guess it's not wrong, is it? Why am I so resistant to admitting that I may have feelings for him? I don't know anymore...

Maybe, I do actually love him...