Overboard (iKON JunHwan Angst)

Chapter 20: Our Little Secret

Chapter 20: Our Little Secret

Junhoe went back to their apartment alone feeling heavy in this heart. He punched in Jinhwan's birthday on his digital lock and settled all their groceries on the kitchen table. His eyes roamed the entire confines of his apartment and he felt...lonely. He didn't expect that he would leave this apartment feeling cloud nine and went home with a pained heart.

He checked his phone and read Jinhwan's message again. Junhoe wasn't sure of what words to reply so just threw his phone on the bed before opening the can of beers they got from their groceries.

As the clock clicked every hour, he already finished 5 cans of beer. He wanted to cry, but what good would crying do? He was already hurting, and crying wasn't his thing at all. But then he realized, after meeting Jinhwan, it was so easy for him to break down and just be vulnerable. He sucks at masking his emotions now that he is with Jinhwan.

After finishing his 6th can, he decided to wait outside of his apartment not minding his phone on the bed. He didn't want to overthink the situation and chose to trust Jinhwan. He gave him time and waited for him outside his apartment. But it seemed like the alcohol wasn't helping him to keep his sanity at all. Junhoe thought of all possible things to happen.

'What if Jinhwan comes back to Hanbin after they talk?'

'Will he come back?'

'What if he doesn't?'

Junhoe's thoughts made him even more dizzy on top of the alcohol starting to kick in. He took a deep breath and decided to sit on the floor beside his door while clasping both his hands to calm his nerves from overthinking.

'Please come back, hyung.'

'Please...'

He buried his face in between his arms while bringing his knees up on his chest to support his dizzy head. Junhoe bit his lower lip to stop himself from crying. He's too sensitive right now and he hates himself for being this vulnerable when it comes to Jinhwan. Maybe Chanwoo was right. He might really be obsessed with Jinhwan. Junhoe shut his eyes close firmly and he didn't realize that he was already dozing off. The alcohol was already lulling him to sleep and he didn't know how many minutes he was asleep, when he heard a familiar voice calling his name.

"Junhoe-ya..."

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Jinhwan felt bad for leaving Junhoe behind, but he couldn't turn down Hanbyul. She had been like his real sister and every time he visits in Hanbin's house back in the days, they would always play together and he even lulled Hanbyul to sleep. Years of being Hanbin's boyfriend made him and Hanbyul closer every time they visit home. He told himself that he just had to drop Hanbyul in their car and go back to Junhoe.

Their walk to the parking lot was quiet and he could feel Hanbin's mom didn't want to start talking any awkward topic between them, so they just let Hanbyul talked random things.

When they were walking going to their car, Jinhwan was surprised when Hanbyul reached out for Hanbin's hand to hold on her free hand. They both looked at each other awkwardly, but Jinhwan avoided Hanbin's intense stare and just let Hanbyul hold him. The little girl was so happy because she would swing both of their hands while walking and Jinhwan couldn't help but smile at how cute Hanbyul was. He honestly missed their bonding time and he felt a little sad, he couldn't play with her anymore. He just hoped someday she would understand.

Hanbin let go of his sister's hand first to open the trunk of their car for their shopping bags while Hanbyul excitedly hopped in the car.

"Thank you for walking Hanbyul until here, Jinani. She truly missed you." Hanbin's mom tapped him on the shoulder and smiled.