Him & Her | The story of a Depressing mind

Waterfalls

An idiot he was...
He let his emotions bottle up for too long...
And he didn't notice that the bottle started to leak, and nearly explode...
He didn't take the warning signs from the night before when he got angry at his father...
He should've been more self aware
He should've been a better human...
Now he is an idiot
And what those people say about him seem to get more true
He is truly sorry...
If only he was smarter...
If only he wouldn't do such stupid things
That could cost him so much
He's sorry
But is that enough to help...
He wants to show in more ways...
But doesn't know how
So what can he do...
He has no clue...
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The glistening of the crimson red trickles down and drips, landing on the waves of the tainted water as steam rises from heat of the water as it sticks to him, causing snakes of water to slither down into its home of it all.
Stains of red fall remain on him, from where they came. Like a waterfall stopped in motion, timeless, eternal. As some still flow, causing the red to drip more and more into the water.
The heat from of the water is more than ever before, boiling the red from the inside, turning him pink, burning him... leaving a pain he will never forget... his mind racing everywhere while he waits
Standing there as the water falls, covering him, hurting him
He wants this, because of his regrets, his mistakes, his need for redemption, he believes this is the only way for him to remember his punishment.
He punished himself over and over again until he learns to be good
Learns to be right
Learns to be himself
He won't stop, he'll go over and over again, making more red fall down, tainting the home of the water more until the water is red, it hurts but it doesn't matter, what matters is that he learns, he thinks, he understands
He grabs it again, as the red isn't enough, there needs to be more, no one will see, no one will care
He's no one
He is a shadow
He's forgettable
Replaceable
A burden
A mistake
A stupid idiot