who's kid is this? (Omasai)

(chapter 19) Katori's past

(Katori's past)
All my life i have been different. Teachers say its a thing to be proud of but we all know that's BS. There is a level of uniqueness a girl my age is allowed to have. If not,you will get targeted by bullys.

Its not like bullys are my biggest problem. Nope. Its my father who causes the most suffering. He beats me. Insults me and insulted my mother. People like that do not deserve forgiveness. Dispite all the pain he caused me,I still tried to play the role of the perfect daughter.

That did more harm than good.

Not only is school and home killing me,my own mind is going through a war. Too many things I wanted but couldn't do due to the persona I put myself into. Too many cruel comments I had to smile through even though they hurt. Too many people I had to pretend to forgive even though I wanted to rip their organs out then and there. Its all too much.

Then I saw it. A game where no one is to be trusted. A game where logical thinking is the only way too live. Danganronpa 2. That's the game where I saw him. Nagito Komaeda...
He was smart,honest and an outcast. Just like me...

Throughout the season of Danganronpa,I felt like I could relate to Komaeda. The rude and horrible insults never seemed to affect him. He never let his emotions get in the way of his goals. Although Komaeda was on the side of hope,I still respected him even looked up to him. I wish I was as strong as him.

When Komaeda's death came on screen,I was devastated. My whole view of the world crumbled. To see how no body cared about his death made me realise a very important thing. Society wanted to cut down us outsiders. There is no point trying to fit in with them.

From that day on,I didn't try to fit in. I beat people to the point where they have to go to the hospital,I never attend class and I never show my weaknesses. They don't deserve to see that side of me.

After danganronpa 2 ended,they began to broadcast danganronpa in different countries. I never cared for it though. All the characters are so generic. So simple almost as if they gave up trying to make good
anti-heros. Despite how sad I was,I still continued my new persona. I was the delinquent who didn't give a crap.

I was currently through my second year of elementery till I met someone. This someone is the reason I found my ultimate talent. No this isn't Seiji. I met him in high school. It isn't Kokichi either. I haven't watched V3 yet. Her name was Chisa. She had to be the first person to show me kindness. Just think of the most perfect person on earth and you basically have miss Chisa. I had to make a mini movie with a couple of people from my class. For some reason I was group leader. In the end,we made a movie about people being insecure about who they are. I was the director of this mini movie and it got the group an A+. We got full marks for staging,lighting physical skills,vocal skills,props and costume design. All of wich I made. Then it hit me. I was talented...really talented...im not saying I was a gift from the gods but I was something special.

Should I use my skill to spread hope and happiness to the world? Of course not!

That will go against my mother's wishes. I will use my skill to spread dispair. Once everyone looses all hope,I will take the throne and become the new ultimate dispair. Poor Junko Enoshima. Are you scared that I will take all your glory? You should be. My poor poor mother~ all her glory will be gone soon~

After danganronpa V3 was being talked about, I almost lost interest. Junko is gone. Aren't they just dragging this a bit to far?

Saying that was the biggest mistake I made that year. That had to be the best danganronpa season I have ever seen. The exacutions in the game were so original and appealing to watch,the deaths were so well thought out and the characters were so well designed. For example,Maki Harukawa. I originally expected her to be a usual uptight boring character. Wrong! Her ultimate talent was a lie! Maki ended up being the ultimate assassin and fell in love with Kaito. That was sweet,even I got to admit that. Or Tenko Chabashira. She was a strong and powerful feminist. Dispite her hatred for men,before she died,she managed to get along with Kaito. Even if it was only a small sentence. One character I hated was Himiko. She was just an anoying,whiny side character. Why did she get to live and Kokichi. Didn't.

You can't even mention Kokichi around me without me going on a five hour rant about how great he is. Like for starters. Hesfunnyandcoolandmakestheclasstrilesmoreinterestinghealsomakespountsthatnoonewoyldofthpughtofsayinglikekallingkaitoanidiotorcallingoutmiuforherstupidlogic. Not only that he also deliberatelythrewawsyhislifetosavehisgoodfornothingclassmatesandheoutsmartedmonokumaimeanlikenoonedonethatbefornoteventheprotaginist.

I just wanted him to survive so that the other participants could see what I saw. All the good characters die and leave behind the crappy ones like Himiko.

I just wish that I could be as calm as Komaeda or as calculated as Kokichi. They're outsiders sure but they made the world their own.