Unwanted

Part 7

She has been through so much and she doesn't know what to do anymore because she still feels depressed each and every day and she does have good things happen to her but at some point her mood will change very quickly and she still feels like she is a dead corpse just walking through the motions. She fell in love with a girl that will probably leave her and sometime never come back even though the girl leaves for a little while but she always comes back but then she thinks that someday she won't want to come back and she will loss the love of her life forever. She even imagines a future with her she has never thought about someone else like that the girl was the only person who she wants to be with forever. She has tried killing herself again and she has tried to overdose many times but the one thing she hasn't done for 5 to 6 months is cut she wants to but she knows it isn't good to do so she doesn't. The reason she wants to do it is because she wants her pain to go away no matter if something is good happening or it is not going good she still feels a lot of pain. She has got forced by a guy who kept kissing her and she tried pushing him off but he kept coming on to her and at point he pinned her arms on the wall so she couldn't get away.  She cried when she got home about it.