I'm not new to love.
No, I've never experienced it, but I watched from the shadows as people became helplessly, utterly in love.
How their smile was a little wider around the partner, how their eyes shone a little brighter.
I watched as they created their own story - their own happily ever after - some with a family and kids, others happy with one another. Doing even the most stupid thing to make their significant other laugh, to put a smile on their face - even if it was temporary.
I watched from the shadows as people fell in love.
Until one day I stepped out from the shadows and started looking for my own love.
I found no one.
I looked desperately trying to find the person I would spend the rest of my life with.
Crushes developed but simply faded into nothing.
I was alone.
Until I reached a point where I had fallen for someone who had barely acknowledged my presence.
Loved by all, I didn't stand a chance so I melted back in to the shadows to watch again.
To watch him dance, sometimes slowly, sometimes gracefully - never letting how he truly felt show.
I watched once as he whispered about me to one of his friends, a glance of disapproval shining in their covered eyes.
And I was alone.
And I realized how much it hurt to watch as somebody danced as the sun of your galaxy, when you were nothing but a simple star in theirs.
And I was alone.
Again.
And again.
And again.
And again.
The feeling of rejection similar to the feeling of falling on concrete.
Except those scraped knees were a lot easier to fix than the internal damage done.
The stinging feeling of loneliness one often hard for a person to bear forever.
But I tried.
Hopeful for that one day when I would meet the person who I was destined for.
It's been years and I still haven't.
And I find myself alone.
again.
~*~
Honestly? It b like that sometimes
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PoetryA couple poems I wrote during darker, and sometimes lighter times in my life :)