18 // Harry Styles

I Got a Heart

The world around me passed by in a blur. The colors blended together making it look like one giant blur of nothing.
I am finally getting out. Its been almost 4 years and I can't take it anymore. I couldn't stand being here anymore. I needed to get out.

Everyone else on the bus is asleep. My mind is too awake for me to sleep. My thoughts are running wild. My music is playing but I can't hear it over my thoughts. Does he remember me? Does he still care? I think about him constantly. He's all I ever think about.

The bus was beginning to feel suffocating. The hot air was beginning to make me uncomfortable. I was okay with it at first but now it's too hot. England isn't the warmest place but there is no need for this much heat.

Leaving was an easy decision. Saying goodbye to all my friends was hard. I just couldn't be there anymore. He was everywhere, yet he was half way across the world. People always talk about him. It hurts knowing all the other girls he's seen. All the new relationships. I haven't dated since he left. He was my everything. I loved him more than anything.

My mind is aware of the next song. It brings tears to my eyes. it's almost like he wrote it about us. He just changed the age. The song brings so many memories that I tried so hard to bury. Sometime I wonder why I bought this song. All it does is hurt me.

The music is beginning to become to much. I turn it off and decide that reading a book will be better. I pull the cheesy romance novel out of my bag and open to my page. It hurts to read romance novels but it's almost a good pain. These characters have this perfect, movie worthy relationship and it reminds me that I had that once. I remember I would have these crazy thoughts that I was dreaming our perfect relationship, or that I was in some movie and I didn't realize it.

Life was good back then. I didn't have much to worry about. I had great friends, good grades, a happy family, and an amazing boyfriend. Of course that all changed as soon as he left. He auditioned for the X Factor. I was happy for him, I supported him, I did everything. Then he got famous. Now I don't exist. At least not to him.

We have arrived at the airport by now. I'm relieved to be off that stuffy bus. I grab my luggage off the bus and head into the airport. I put my luggage through the luggage thing and continue my way to the carry-on-bag check. After my bag is cleared I move on to security check. I take off my shoes and coat. Put my keys, phone and other things that might make the sensor go off into a basket before I walk through it. I collect my things and put my shoes and coat back on. All I have to do now is wait at my gate. I find my gate but decide I want food. I quickly head to a small airport cafe and order a bagel with cream cheese and some warm tea.

After o eat I go to my gate. I plug my headphones back into my phone and shuffle my music. I keep it low enough that I can hear the people over the P.A.

It feels as if I've been sitting there for hours but finally my flight is called.
"Flight 18 to New York is now boarding."

I grab my bag and pull my ticket out. handing it to the lady standing by the loading area she clears me and I head onto the plane.

I choose a seat near the back and sit by the window. A few minuets later an old couple ask to sit next to me. I tell them to join me and they take their seats. The couple and I talk for a while before the plane takes off. The couple said they've been together since they were 18. I used to think Him and I would be together forever. That obviously didn't happen.

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I'm awoken by someone gently shaking me.
"Dear, the flight is over. Everyones leaving the plane." I look up to see the old women talking to me.
I unbuckle myself and grab my bag before I start walking off the plane.

When I exit the airport after getting my luggage I go outside. The city lights are bright and the noise already is a comfort. The cold breeze blows my hair in my face but I push it back. The city is so beautiful and awake.

"Hello Miss, do you need a cab?" I look twords the road to see a man waiting at the curb in a taxi.

"Uh, yes actually I do." I quickly grab my luggage and put it in the trunk of the cab. I tell the driver to take me to a hotel in the city.

"Are you new around here?" The cab driver asked.

"Yeah I just moved from Cheshire." I reply while looking out the window at my surroundings.

"Well, welcome to New York City." That's the moment I realize I'm home. This is home.

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Hello!
So I got the idea for this story while I was riding the bus home. I was listening to 18 by One Direction and I fell in love with the song. As I was listening to the songs I was thinking of the lyrics and I just got the idea for this story.

Things will be explained more in the next chapter. You will find out who 'he' is if you don't already know and you will find out more about their past. This book will also have flashbacks. The flashbacks will be in italics and will give you small glimpses of their past relationship.

The titles of the chapter will basically end of being the whole song by the time the book is over. 'I Got a Heart' is the first line of 18.

Please enjoy and feedback is always appreciated!

XOXO,
Francesca

P.s. This is unedited and was written on my iPhone.

P.s.s The main character (whose name will be revealed in the next chapter) is played by Taissa Farmiga. She is attached to the side.

P.s.s.s. This cover was made by speedreader1130 she makes great covers!