Learning To Love (a Noochm and BajanCanadian Fan Fic)

Dont kill me- but its important

Hey, so I need to make this short, but I'll get to the point. Im sorry I havent been updating, but I hit a really hard time in my life- and Im still in that period. My depression is getting bad again, and I dont think I've been sadder in my life than as of these last few months. I've been more anxious than ever, and I just couldnt find it in me to update. I've also changed a lot from the girl I was a year ago. Im not as happy anymore. Reality hit like a truck. Im overthinking more than any other time of my life, and it just keeps getting worse. I will start trying again though. Its not fair to you guys that I just left with no warning. And I cant tell you how sorry I am for that. So for my books. I will keep writing them. But LTL is going to go under a MAJOR re-editing session. Its crap. Dont even fight with me- we all know its really, really bad. And my writing style has both improved (im told and think so at least) and changed a lot. I used to be really obnoxious in my writing. I look at the earlier chapters in this book and want to slap myself. I mean, authors notes in the middle of a chapter? WHAT WAS I DOING.  (not mean if you do that, its just mine were always really stupid and obnoxious) Heck, Im stupid and obnoxious. Always will be I guess :/ Ah  well. My self-esteem aside; I will start updating this book again. The same plot will be in place, I just need to fix how its presented. I have no idea how long it will take, but I will still continue this book for you guys, and Im sorry I've been so distant. Im going to do this though. After Im done revising LTL, I will also start back on one shots- and if you guys have to chain me up in my basement with a notebook and a pencil; do it. Because I swear right now, (feel free to remind me later) that this account WILL be active and I will finish every single chapter of this book and finish each one shot for you guys. I promise. and my real life friends have all permission to abuse me until I do so. As of my new creation you guys may or may not have noticed (the story of me) that will also go into effect after I revise LTL and finish the one shots. It is meant to act as an online diary-esque thing for me to do. To notify you guys on my beliefs, experiences, and thoughts at the time. A way for me to get out my feelings so Im not so pent up, and for you guys to better know who I am and how I've changed. So you know what happened. Im glad I changed. There is absolutely nothing wrong if you are currently the euphoric, loud, and crazy girl I used to be. Good for you actually, I really am happy for you. Its just that that version of me, wasnt the real me at all. Yes, the real me is a depressed, sarcastic, overthinking, occasionally jerk-ish, aggrovating (I cant spell that), pessimistic, quiet, nerdy outcast. But Im more comfortable with being that. I know all of you are probalby thinking from that description that you would hate me in real life (which you might, I dont know) but one thing I can say is that I wont appear to be this way. Im not going to go off at you with a temper. Im not going to pour out my heart and soul to you why crying hysterically. Im not going to hurt you. I care about others so much more than myself. I never dreamed my stupid book would get this much populartiy on a website. I remember starting this account and thinking "maybe, just maybe, I'll get 100 reads and maybe even get to talk to Selah" WHICH I DID. WHAT. I got to talk to my inspiration off of wattpad; and people noticed me. You guys, without knowing, made me realize that I want to be a writer when I grow up; and that I could do that if I keep trying. Okay, Im done irritating/updating you with my sob story. If youre curious about my story over the past 9-ish (i think) months, watch for the story of me when Im done updating my other to stories, I might end up going into depth there. Well, thats my update- sorry Ive been gone so long. And sorry that this is so long, but you deserve to know. Ill be back, be good my lovelies :)