✔️Don't leave me • Felix✔️

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I slowly went up the stairs. "Be careful!" Jinyoung said before I left their dorm. I nodded, but every step made me more nervous. I never thought our spot could suddenly become a place I was afraid of. I remember the first time going there, just Felix and me. "Let's go to the rooftop!" he suddenly said as he took me with him, holding onto my hand. the view was beautiful as the sun was setting, a thousand colours and feelings washing over me. Now, the only feeling inside me was fear. Was our friendship going to end here? Where it started?

The shrieking sound of he door opening at the end of the stairs startled me. I went through it and instantly shivered as a chilly breeze flew by. Felix was leaning against the railing, his arms crossed as he leaned forward. I walked up next to him to look at the view. The sky was a mixture of orange, red and yellow and so many more colours, for one second it made me forget about everything.

"It's beautiful isn't it?" Felix said softly. "It is" I said back. "Remember the first time we came here?" he asked, not sparing me even one glance. I tilted my head sideways towards him, taking in all of his features, counting all the freckles like I did the first time. "I do" I said, not sure where he was going with the story. He suddenly turned tome, gazing into my eyes, taking me by surprise as he grabbed my hands in what seemed like dispair. "We promised we'd always be together, so what went wrong? I don't want to lose you Y/N. These days have been horrible, seeing to so close yet so distant, it hurts so much. Please Y/N, I want you, no, I need you back in my life!"

"Felix, there's nothing in my life I want more then to be with you guys again, but if you missed me so much, why did you leave me behind, forget about me as soon as someone else appeared? Why did you treat me as scum when I told you guys I don't trust her? Why? Why?" The tears were streaming down once again, unstoppable, uncontrollably. Felix looked so hurt, so pityful, so sorry, there aren't even words to accurately describe the look he had on his face.

"I never meant to go this far Y/N, I never meant for all of it to go like this, I swear!" Felix said. His voice broke down as well, the emotions he had kept inside all along came up. We stood right in front of each other, both wanting to hugh each other, both wanting everything to go back to normal, but didn't know how to. "Felix, why did you forget about me when we were finally meeting together?" I asked, trying to keep my voice steady, but failing miserably. "I never forgot."

It felt as if my heart stopped for a moment. "You never forgot?" I was so confused I didn't even know how to react. "If you never forgot, then why on earth did you say you did? And why was Sana there again?" Felix let out a huge sigh as he turned back to the railing. "She came unannounced. I was just about to go pick you up downstairs, but she kept whining, even dragging me back into the practice room. She started tickling the others, and when they ran after her she jumped on my back before I could go away. Of course, at that moment you had to come in... She kept telling me not to go, as if she was purposely trying to keep me away from you. I don't know what it is, but something really feels off about her. I don't need her Y/N, I just need you."

My heart absolutely broke as I hugged him with all my might. "Please don't leave me Felix" I cried out. "Please promise me that you won't actually leave me. I don't want it, I want to stay with you forever, I need you right by my side!" The moment was so painful, yet so magical. Being in his arms, being able to finally tell him everything again, I never thought that it would hurt so much to not be able to do those things. "I won't ever leave you Y/N, I promise. At this very day, exactly three years later, at this exact spot I promise you once more, I, Lee Felix, will never leave you."

I posted a picture on my instagram, instantly getting replies. "Jae says he's glad we made up again" I told Felix as we sat down against the railing, my head leaning on his shoulder. "I think he really hated me for a good minute back then" Felix replied. "I seriously thought he'd kill me, Jinyoung too They really care a lot about you you know?" I nodded, smiling softly. "I'm really lucky to have such good friends."

Another text message from Sana came in.

*Sana*
Are you blind or just really dumb? What on earth did you not understand about leave them alone?

*Y/N*
Listen up Sana, I'm done with all of your sh*t! Who are you and why on earth are you doing this to me? What the heck did I do to deserve this?

*Sana*
What did you do? The exact same thing I'm doing to you now!

*Y/N*
That's it, who on earth are you?

*Sana*
Just a small little girl from middle school no one cared about

*Y/N*
Kim Sana? Really? You're Kim Sana?

*Sana*
Finally someone caught on!