Little Habits - Yoongi X Bts

Fifteen; troubled

My heart rate sped up, as I remained to myself. I closed my eyes, but I had clearly identified the voice in my head. "I'm here alone, I told the others to stay out," he says, as he dipped beside my ear. He waited patiently for me to reply, and I took me sweet ass time to do so. It was rude, but I felt hurt. I never thought they'd leave me, only as a joke. But I guess not?

"Okay," I answer, looking at him. He was frowning, and it was too cute. The heat rose to my chest, and I sighed, sitting up, "I'm sorry Kookie." He shook his head, and turned back to the kitchen, wavering for me to follow. He placed the three bags of groceries on the kitchen counter, "you have nothing to be sorry for. They're just stupid to have left you here, alone. You, uhm, didn't do anything wrong, right?" He sounded so unsure, and it was killing me inside slowly. I gulp, and shake my head. Lies.

"That's good progress, yeah?" He chuckles, pulling out the groceries and putting them into the fridge. After he finished unloading the first two bags, the silence between us felt unbearable. I didn't eat to speak, because I felt like he didn't want me to. I was bad in little space, so aren't I just as bad now? It technically me, just even looser. Sure I act like a child, and fuss about things alike a child, but still. Not too much of a difference. At least in my head.

"I know you might not like the sound of this, or maybe you'll love it. I hope you'l love it but," he says, his voice slightly cracking as he blinked away tears, "you're gonna have to eat now, okay? And I tried to do this in the most fun way. Me, you, Jiminie, Hobi, we'll have a movie night. Just the four of us, and I got everyone's favorites." My breath hitches, and I nod at him. He smiles, and leeches me in a hug. I smile back weakly, not even daring to groan as he pressed his arm onto mine.

We set up the snacks and all into his room, since he had his own room. Plus, he had his own tv as well. Jin, Namjoon, and Taehyung were apparently being punished by Hoseok, Jimin, and Jungkook. It was a little unfair, but I really have zero say about it at this point.

I sit on his bed, Jimin and Hoseok piling in shortly after. I couldn't help but just hug them both so tight. It hurt my arms like hell, but I didn't say anything. I just did it. I'm feeling emotional today, okay? "I'm sorry they left you here, and that we weren't here. We should've been," Jimin said, rubbing his fingertips up and down Yoongi's sleeves, "it's all my fault, i-" I shake my head, and kiss his cheek, "i-it's not your fault Chim...it's all okay. It's no ones fault." Hoseok sits on the bed, and clenches a pillow to his chest, waving to me to come sit beside him.

Jungkook walks in, locking the door behind himself, "they won't come in." We all nod, giving him a little thumbs up. I'd apologize tomorrow, but today I'll just stay like this. It's better then me lashing out for no reason. We all cuddle close on the bed, and just watch Netflix. I put my head on Jimin's chest, taking a shaky breath, as I wrapped my arms around him. He smiles, and we all continued to watch the movie in some type of peace.

He shifts his weight, slightly falling on me. And my arm. "For fucks sake," I whine, holding my arm in pain. Not even realizing that it was a dead give away. How stupid can I be! My eyes fall dull, and I attempt to run off but I'm too weak, and I'm too slow. Jimin grabs me by the shoulder, "hey, you're not going anywhere, Yoongs." The life slowly drains out of me, "can I just get this over with now?" Jungkook nods slowly, as they all look at me. A swallow hardly, "not that anyone is really surprised, because it's just me at this point. I cut myself -goddamn-, okay?" I rub my eye, and sit back down, and continue to watch the movie after finally saying, "I don't want to talk anymore, please, I'll stop it now, just don't even try. It isn't worth it, especially not for me."

Jimin sniffled a little, but nodded, understanding entirely. Jungkook just looked struck in the heart, but I'm perfectly fine with that. Oh, and Hoseok? He was probably contemplating about it all in his head.

Softly, I whisper, 'I'm sorry'

God, I hope I fall in little space.