Well... I had been clean for two or three weeks until last night. My boyfriend broke up with me and then my dad got back with his bitch of a girlfriend. She is so rude to me! It's like I do nothing right! She favors my brother and then doesn't even acknowledge that I'm alive. I couldn't take it anymore. Last night I cut. My razor was getting dull, I didn't see blood..... So I tried harder, still no blood. I used the edge and it worked. I slid the tip of the razor across my forearm. The blood started to come out. I was home alone. I heard a knock at the door I pulled down my sleeve and opened the door. It was my dad. I let him in and went back to my room to check the cuts. They wouldn't stop bleeding. I changed into a different long sleeved shirt because that one was white and it was starting to bleed through. I put on a purple striped hoodie and it still bled through but not as bad. You could see the lines with the little drops of blood through the shirt. Eventually they stopped bleeding. For the rest of the evening my arm hurt. It hurt throughout the night, and still do..... I'm so disappointed in myself I was clean for awhile then I ruined it!😔
