The one that I used to loved

The one that I used to love

Im a 17 years old short skinny girl who loved a boy who is 19 years old named Ian . He is a tall skinny boy , with brown eyes , curly hair and tanned . We had a relationship since 2017 and we are in a same school . Okay first thing first , lets talk about how I get to know him and how we start our relationship .

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So when im 15 y/o , im with someone else that was better than Ian . Then when Ian and I start chatting about useless things , feelings toward my bf faded slowly (im not cheating but kinda) . When Ian and I keep chatting , I feel something that like I like him . But at that time , I hold my feelings towards Ian back because I still have a heart that I have to take care of  which is my bf's heart .

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Then , Ian and I keep chatting untill I fall in love with him . I dont know where were the feelings came from and when did the feelings came to me . Of course that time Ian was so sweet . Then , I started to have no feelings with my bf . He is a nice boy but idk . Maybe Ian's existance make all these happens . Then I talk to my bf slowly about my feelings and wanted to break up . It is hard because we were in a relationship for 10 months .

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When we broke up , I shared my story with Ian and he just being so nice to me . A few days after that we have a relationship together . April 4 2017 was our first day in relationship . We didnt stay together , hang out together like other couples because of few reasons .

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First year went well untill he find another girl who was can go out together and bla bla bla . He had a relationship with that girl secretly . When I knew about it , im lost , dont know what to do because this is my first time my heart being broken . Im just share everything with my bestfriend , Anne . Even tho she is single but she know what to said to me about my relationship . Thats why I love her .