Angie
After the video I set the phone down and went back up to my room. I seen Devin sleeping peacefully, I smiled softly feeling tears well up. I walked out of the room and went into Michael's room. He was sleeping in the same position as his dad. I smiled and finally felt a tear fall, I walked up to him and went on my knees caressing his face. I sniffed and admired my son for the last time. He stirred around as his eyes fluttered open.
"Mommy?" He says yawning
"I'm sorry I woke you baby." I whisper sniffing
"Why are you crying?" He asks turning his desk lamp on
His face read nothing but worry. He grabbed my hand quickly scanning my face.
"It's nothing baby. I'm fine, I just want you to know I love you so so much." I say
"I love you too mom, but it is something you don't just come in my room at 3 in the morning crying." He says
"Your scaring me." He finally admits
"I know baby I'm sorry. Just go back to sleep I'll see you in the morning." I say
"I love you mom." He says turning the light off
"I love you too." I say standing up.
I walk out of his room and went back to mine. I laid in the bed and faced Devin's sleeping body. I sighed and let out a couple more tears. I ran my hand on his face. I admired the love of my life carefully, analyzing his every feature. He stirred around and faced me.
"Lift up." He says sleepily
I did as he said and laid my head on his arm, he brought me closer wrapping his strong arms around my petite form. I sighed and inhaled his scent, I smiled and nuzzled into his bare warm chest. He exhaled loudly tightening his grip. I wrapped my leg around his torso, I felt my eyes getting heavy again so I just shut them.
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I woke up to an empty bed, I sighed and woke up stretching. I looked around my room and put my head down. I heard a knock on the door,
"Come in!"
Kevin's head peered through the door looking so sad.
"Can we have our last brother sister cuddle?" He asks his voice breaking
I nod, he walks over laying down in the bed. He pulled the covers over him putting his arm down for me to lay on. I laid back down as he wrapped himself around me like Devin did. I sighed and felt more tears coming, more than last night. I finally let out the sob that was threatening to pour out all night. Kevin silently started sobbing as well, we just held each other sobbing. This was my last day with my big brother, with my world, with my son, with everyone. The pain I was holding inside was too much to handle I wanted to claw my own heart out. We sat there crying till we couldn't cry anymore. The rest of the cuddle session was spent talking. We both stood up and stretched, Kevin looked at me and smiled.
"What?" I ask
"You look terrible." He says chuckling
