feelings for you Mr.

what are you?

           Crush? Love? What are you?
          

               
                     In this world i don't think you'll be mine and i don't think i shall be yours.

For once i

                thought i found endearment and for once i though you're the one, but after all,

these were just  inventions of mine and a joke to myself. Never really realize what i've

been doing just to be with someone that doesn't even like me back, and for long i've

been a fool. i just don't understand why you're being all "hard to get"  and stuff because

you're just a guy, like the others smart,loving, and sometimes childish but i wonder what

makes you different, is it your smile, your eyes, your face? whatever it is, it makes my

day.

                     i keep telling my friends and myself not to fall in love with you but just

can't resist it and fell in love and after knowing all your imperfections  i fell apart and

my heart just broke into pieces and it went to a point where in i don't know how to

fix it.

                mondays and fridays are totally my favorite days of the week, not because

school starts and ends, no, it's because i get to see you. and every time i get to see you, i

get to smile and show romantic excitement and it just brings me into a perfect world that

was made for you and me. but during this time i always promise myself to think about

my own self and think about my studies, but you being in every watch makes me forget

all those. well, that  just proves that i'm obsess with you:)

               i never wanted to like you.
but suddenly that changed.

  

                
                     weeks went by and these feelings are getting deeper and deeper and the

true me is slowly fading away.

   
        
               i know i'm not meant for you and it hurts letting you go because you're the guy

that inspired me and the guy that made me smile but there is no turning back because

this feeling that i've been carrying is getting deeper and deeper and heavier and

heavier.

              i'm getting tired of waiting for you down the stairs and you ignoring me.

getting tired to be with someone that doesn't have any interest in me.

i am getting tired of all this shit, but somehow i keep going and going and thinking one

day you'll be mine which shall never happen.

                      well the world is an imperfect place but it is what i have
                and you being in the same place makes me blush and smile but all
                                     i ever wanted is you to be happy.

                  . thank my silly giraffe. love you
                                                          never forget the world is as large as your head
                      and it holds millions of people.