REVIVAL.

Introduction.

A/N.
Who am I exactly?

Insane how I still don't know how to properly introduce myself yet am nearly twenty years old. It scares me that I'm no longer going to be a teenager, it's like I'll be old in some way. Anyway, I'm getting off topic.

Psychic is a word that I feel so far, best describes my personality at least.
Well you already know my age.

I am not sure how to term my childhood, but I can say there are parts of it that i can't remember. No, I wasn't too young to remember, if I wanted to remember I could, I just have never had the interest to relive some moments.

I guess that's where it all started. I've mastered the art of storing bad memories like that. I've never thought of it as a bad habit. If I'm being honest I still don't think it's a bad habit. However I've heard that holding things in or 'locking them away' like that is not healthy. The thing is, I know no better. I find talking about how I feel or even what I'm thinking really hard, impossible actually.

There are all sorts of theories as to what is my apparent issue. Some say Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, others anxiety disorder, others compartmentalization disorder,some Post Traumatic Stress Disorder, some all of them. I don't know really. Maybe it is all of them.

I've spent most of my highschool caring for other people's mental health that I legitimately became one person with them. I felt what they felt. I am not complaining, I'd do it again in a heartbeat.

I've had a lot of dark episodes, really dark. Suicidal, self harm, name it.
But it's got better for me. It is getting better even after I believed I had hit a dead end.
It can for you too.