Dirty Mind •JIKOOK FF•

chapter 14: sickness

JIMIN POV
I walked out of the bathroom and hoseok and yoongi looked at me "you don't look so good..are you okay?" I looked at hoseok "I'm fine.." I walked away and went to the car and got in and jungkook looked at me worried..I was really pale and didn't look okay..I looked back at jungkook "can we stop by the pharmacy?" He nodded "okay.." we drove off and got to the pharmacy "do u want me to go in with you?" I shook my head "I'll be back" I smiled then got out and went inside going straight to look at pregnancy tests then I saw tae and pulled my hood up, trying not to be noticed and I looked at the pregnancy tests "jimin?" Fuck..I looked at tae "hey tae.." he looked at me confused "what are you doing here and why are u looking at pregnancy tests?" He showed a shocked face "are you-" I put my hand over his mouth "be quiet tae, I don't know..I'm making sure" i looked back at the pregnancy tests and he sighed "he got u pregnant" I shook my head and sighed "I don't know if it's his" he was shocked again "u-" I looked at him "shutup tae.. don't u think I knew what I did..and i have to deal with my responsibilities..so just stay out of it.. please.." he frowned "I'm sorry" he walked off and I sighed "bye tae" he waved "bye.." I grabbed a few of the pregnancy tests and went to pay for them then went to the bathroom and took a few of them and was waiting to see the results and few minutes passed and I looked and seeing it says PREGNANT..I was shocked..no..fuck..I'm pregnant..what am I gonna do...it could be jungkooks or jihyung's..it's a human being but I don't want jihyung's kid..I want jungkooks..I fucked up..puts my hand on my stomach..I'm sorry little one..I have to get a abortion..I'm sorry..I teared up and then started crying..I calmed down after awhile I took a deep breath then threw the pregnancy tests away and left the pharmacy and went back to the car.."hey jungkook..do u have the doctors number?" He nodded "yeah.. what's up?" I gulped some "Its a personal issue..I need his number.." he was confused but gave me his number and we drove off and I texted him: "hello hoseok?"..he texted back: "hello who is this?" I texted: "this is jimin..i need do something but I want to keep secret so please don't tell anyone..I need a abortion..we texted for awhile and he said okay to meet tomorrow and I said okay..we went to jungkooks house and went to his room "do u wanna take a bath or shower" I smiled "sure" he looked at me "do u want me to take one with u?" I nodded slowly "I would like that" we went to his bathroom and got undressed and filled the bathtub up and he made a bubble bath and he got in then I got in on his lap and smiled..he wrapped his arms around me and put his hands on my stomach "some day that little stomach will have a baby..and i hope it will be our kid" I faked a smile "yeah" i felt bad from what I was doing..i needed to tell him but I was scared to...I needed to stop keeping secrets..I knew he would hate me and I couldn't live with that..I needed for him to know..I'm sorry jungkook but u will never know..and i will never know whos kid it is..I don't want to know..I'm frightened to know..I was dumb..I was whore..I was slut..I liked what jihyung did..I let him and I loved what jungkook did..every minute of it..but now I was pregnant and i didn't know who was the father..I fucked up bad and I wish I didn't and i hope I wasn't making the biggest mistake of my life..we took a bath and then got out and was laying on the bed cuddling..i couldn't help my thoughts.. jungkook fell asleep and I started to cry just thinking.. jungkook woke up and heard me "baby you okay?..are u having a bad dream" I sat up still crying and shook my head "I-i c-cant l-lie a-anymore" he was confused "lie about what?" I looked at him "i-im s-sorry j-jungkook.." I was crying hard and he pulled me to his chest "baby calm down it's okay.." I shook my head "it's not okay Jungkook..I fucked up badly" I got off the bed "I'm sorry jungkook..but I'm pregnant and i don't know whos it is" he looked at me "what do u mean?" I was crying and i didn't wanna look at him "it could be ur brothers..I'm so sorry jungkook..I just couldn't lie anymore.." he frowned "u and my-" he was upset "just tell me this..did u enjoy it?.." I cried "I'm sorry jungkook.. I'm very sorry" he started to tear up then got up and left the room and I sat on the bed and curled my legs up and cried more.