I've hurt many people.
Every night I begin to realize many things.
The people that I loved.
Are feeling pain.
Because of me they feel unworthy.
I never meant to hurt many innocent hearts...
I never meant to hurt them..
I'm sorry I didn't get to give a warning..
But I am deadly.
I don't wanna fall anymore..
I don't wanna hurt anyone!
I never meant to.
I'm just lost.
Broken.
But I know now.
I don't deserve anyone.
I don't deserve to fall in love.
I don't deserve any forgiveness.
For all the nights that I had cried,
For all the nights that I had lied to myself,
For all the nights that I had cut,
For all the nights that I had felt pain.
I wasn't me.
I wasn't the person that the people knew.
I tried..
I tried not to be a dangerous person..
I never won the battle..
My demons had came.
The monster took control.
Hurting many people that I love.
I watched and cried.
Outside I'm human.
But in the inside I'm a monster.
Now, it's out of control.
I can't control it anymore...
My monster is stronger..
There's no cure..
Other than helping it hurt people and myself...
I'm sorry...
But I'm a monster and there's no stopping it.
It's better off for me to be alone with no one in my life..
All I wanted was help, but I know they will give up...
I stopped trying..
So please don't bother.
You can't defeat and love a monster.
Nobody can love a monster like me.
She would want to save you from herself.
For the monster that she has become.
She wants you safe.
Not in pain.
