NOT TODAY

Why?

Taehyung pulled away and said. "We should sleep."

"But I am not sleepy." Jungkook teased laying down on the bed. He pulled Tae down with him. He nuzzled against my neck and slowly drifted off to sleep.

***

Taehyung woke up to quick movements on the bed. He opened his eyes and saw that Jungkook had jumped to the opposite side of the bed. There was loud banging on the door, "Tae! JK! Wake up. Our flight leaves in 3 hours!"

"We're up. We're up." Jungkook opened the door.

"We just need to pack my toothbrush and change. Chill." Tae said getting off the bed.

Both of them ran to the bathroom, brushed their teeth and walked out to pack their toothbrushes in their suitcase. Tae began taking off his shirt and pants to go shower. He was still dressed in a white formal shirt and black trouser from last night.

"I'll go shower first." Tae said running into the bathroom in his boxers. Jungkook nodded at him slightly flustered. Even though the boy has seen me naked a billion times, it's funny how he still got so shy around the older.

"Do you want to join me?" Tae smirked knowing the reaction he'll get from him.

"Taee!" Jungkook whined chucking a pillow at Tae.

"Okay. Okay." Tae chuckled raising his hands in surrender and went inside to shower.

***

They were in the car on our way to the airport with Bang PD. Tae could not wait to go back to Seoul. He just wanted to go lay on his bed. He really missed home.

Tae still had a terrible hangover headache so he snuggled against Jungkook in the car and closed his eyes. Jungkook brushed Tae's hair with his other hand making him feel nice and fuzzy inside.

Taehyung's thoughts drifted back to when he started having feelings for Jungkook when he was 18. Jungkook was still very young. The two of them got close really fast when Tae joined the group last. Jungkook was this shy little kid with the cutest doe-eyes. Tae couldn't help but want to get close to him. Jungkook felt comfortable around him too. Everything between them was like any normal friendship between two teenage boys until the first time the doe-eyed boy kissed Taehyung. That was when Taehyung fell for him. Hard. So hard that he couldn't keep myself away from Jungkook after.

They always flirted around. Whenever Jungkook got annoyed and told Tae to shut up, He'd tell him to make him. The occasional butt smacks, cheek kisses, cuddling. The ravenette was so cute that Tae couldn't help but want to just squish him and eat him up. It didn't help that Jungkook reciprocated all of it too so Tae presumed that it was just two bros being cute.

Then this one day after finishing filming for an episode of Rookie King things changed. Hoseok and Tae had to kiss in the game they were playing for the show. The brunette didn't really mind. It was just a kiss. After they finished filming, he went a little later to the dressing room to change and get his make-up off. The others were done changing and they were playing UNO on the set waiting for Bang PD to be done checking the footage.

Jungkook was in the dressing room when Tae walked in so I back hugged him and whispered, "Hey, Bun."

"Don't touch me." He forcefully pried the brunette's hands off him and pushed him back. Hearing him say that really hurt Tae.

"What happened, love?"

"Don't call me that." He said with tears in his eyes threatening to fall out.

"Why? What is wrong? Please talk to me." Tae begged walking close to him reducing the distance between them.

"I can't." The ravenette broke down crying and hugged Tae. He buried his head on Tae's shoulder.

He stopped crying after a few seconds and spoke up, "What are we?"

"Friends?"

He pushed Tae away angrily and sat on the couch next to the dressing table.

"Best friends?" Tae tried again.

"Is that all we are?"

"Brothers-?"

"That's it, I am leaving-" He stood up but Tae grabbed his hand and pulled him back with force. Jungkook was short and skinny back then. The force was too much so he collided into Tae's chest.

"Why are you asking this now?" Tae looked into his doe-eyes. He didn't know what to say.

"Because-" He locked his hands around Tae's neck and kissed him.

It wasn't steamy. There was no tongue involved. It was just a peck first. Then their lips moved in sync. Tae gently placed his hands on Jungkook's hips as they continued kissing for a few seconds until Tae pulled away.

"Why?"

"I did not like watching you kiss Hobi. You can only kiss me from now on." He said pecking Tae's lips again.

"Jungkoo-"

"Did you not like it?" He cut Tae off mid-sentence.

"You know we-"

"Yes or no, Tae. Did you not like it?" He looked scared. Tae did not want to disappoint him. Or lie to him.

So, he kissed him again. Short but passionate. "Does that answer you question?"

He grinned and hugged the brunette.

It was Tae who brought up the conversation about stopping what was going on between them. Tae realized that people were starting to notice that there was something going on between the two of them. They could not get caught. It's not just about how the public might not accept it. His own family won't be able to handle it.

They hadn't kissed after that for more than a year. Tae had occasionally fooled around with other guys and girls sometimes to get over Jungkook. He never told the ravenette about it but he knew. He used to get angry whenever Tae went to hang out with Bogum or Hyung-sik. He was never the jealous kind. He never got paranoid. Mostly because he knew that when they were together, Tae was serious. But he noticed a hickey on Tae's collarbone before he had a chance to cover it up. It was after Tae had come back from his shoot for Hwarang. He knew. But he didn't say anything. He was hurt. But it is better this way.

"Taehyung, people are starting to make up theories about you being gay or possibly Bi. We can't have that image for you. I have two options for how we can fix this-" Bang PD started interrupting Tae's thoughts from the seat in front next to the driver's seat.

"What's wrong with people thinking he's gay or bi? It's just theories, sir. I do not think it needs to be taken this seriously. I doubt everyone believes it. Even if they do, what is the problem?" Yoongi interrupted.

"It's bad PR Yoongi. As much as we know that people have gotten a lot more accepting towards the LGBTQ+ community, the group with lose a considerable chunk of your fanbase if people start believing the theories. Your selling point is that you are young, attractive and available for girls to long after. You know that better than I do. You experience it first-hand."

Yoongi just nodded.

"Taehyung. Back to my options. You either find yourself a temporary girlfriend so that the theorists back off or we can help find someone for a short while." Tae had gotten up by that point. He was not entirely against it. It was just acting, right? He could just think of this as another job within his job.

"I will see what I can do and get back to you soon, sir." Tae replied and looked towards Jungkook who looked spaced out and sad. He nuzzled up against the ravenette again to comfort him. He knew him well enough to know that he's upset about this.