When i was 14
I fucked around
I cut
I did drugs
When i was 13
I cut
I did drugs
And i tried to OD
When i was 12
I cut
I was all alone
When i was 11
I started to call myself names
I cut
I was all alone
When i was 10
I was fat
I got bullied
And i cut for the first time
When i was nine
I was abused
I was only bullied by a few
I still didnt believe the cruel words
When i was 8
I was bullied
I was abused
I was abandoned
I still wore my rose colored glasses
When i was 7
I was abused
I was bullied
I still called my dad everynight
I still thought he'd answer too
I still found good in the world
When i was 6
I was bullied
I was abused
I missed school
I had to raise my brother
I was the one who found the empty. Bottles
When i was 5
I heard the fights
I saw the abuse
I witnessed the hate
I was abused
I found the bottles
I cried myself to sleep
I was the one who watched my father beat my mother
Yet im 15 now
I still cut
And i bully myself
Ive lost it all
I lost my friends
I lost my self esteem
I drink
I smoke
And i hate who i am
When i was 10
I realized reality
I didnt sugar coat the world
I crushed my rose colored glasses
I let the words circle me like hungry sharks
When i was 10 years old i began to hate myself
Yet im 15 now and the hate i feel has only grown
It suffocates me everynight
And pushes me inches closer to the edge of that cliff
Im only 15 yet ive been dying inside since i was 5
Welcome to the fucked up reality of my world
