Like No One is Watching

Chapter 5

I slam the door running into my apartment. I go to find the bottle of whiskey I keep hidden in my cabinets. Opening the medicine cabinet, I push the bottles that are supposed to help aside. These drugs just make me sick. They wanted me to pack them in case I needed them, but the doctor told me no when the seizures hit after my hysterectomy. I tip the whiskey bottle back drinking it with a smile. I grab a bottle of Percocet taking about 4 pills. I go to lay down in my bed numbing myself when I heard my phone ring. I look over to see that its Jett. Taking another drink from the bottle, I reach for my phone answering.

"Hello?" I answer.

"Juliet? What happened? Why'd you run off?" Jett asked frantically. If he only knew, he wouldn't care that I ran off. He was infatuated. He would be hurt. When anyone got close to see her demons, they left of getting hurt.

"Nothing. It doesn't matter anyway," my words came out slurred as the pills react to the alcohol.

"Are you drunk Juliet?" Jett almost yelled. I smirked. How cute he was trying to protect me from me.

"Only a little. Not near enough. Soon I will be numb," I slurred taking another drink.

"Why?" he asked as I hung up. I needed silence to reach the level of numb I wanted. I needed to make sure no nightmares would come tonight instead of the miserable reminder of my past. This numbness was the safer option but my least favorite the other makes me feel real in the meantime. This method made me feel blurrier and make stupid decisions. I stood up stumbling to my bed. My body was screaming to rest but my mind wanted me to call someone to come over. I jumped on my phone checking as I wondered if I wanted a stranger or one of my regulars. Deciding a regular, I scrolled through my contacts finding one that would suffice for tonight as I hit call.

"Hello," he answered.

"Hey Axl," I slurred drunkenly trying to flirt.

"Hey babe, what's up?" His tone changed to a flirty one. He knew the only reason I called was when he needed to come over.

"I need help," I whined. His chuckle over the phone made me realize he was already on his way.

"Well, the door better be unlocked when I get over there, baby," his smirk evident in his voice. Rarely, I locked the door when I was going to numb myself.

"It is," I giggled hanging up the phone to get ready. I stripped my shirt off leaving me in a sports bra and leggings only. About 10 minutes later, I heard the front door open and shut.

"Babydoll! I'm here," Axl called through the halls. I heard his shirt hit the floor.

"Come here then!" I giggled. I stretched on the bed as he entered. His blue eyes darkened seeing my bra and leggings. He slid off his jeans to his boxers before coming to the bed.

"Damn sexy, baby. How much you have?" he asked against my ear.

"Hmm, a quarter bottle and about 4 pills" I breathed. Axl knew my ways of numbing myself. Its why we worked he knew how much I could have to still have fun.

"Perfect," He breathed kissing my neck. I melted into his touch, which led to much more allowing me to relax fully.

After an hour of hooking up with Axl, I rolled to the side smiling. He traced his hands up and down my body. I moaned softly. I noticed my body was littered with hickeys and groaned.

"What babydoll?" he smirked kissing my neck.

"No hickeys remember?" I moaned softly.

"Sorry, its been too long baby" he growled.

"I agree. I forgot how good you are," I ran my hand up to his chest, "Round 2?"

He smiled before kissing me. He positioned himself on top of me getting rougher this time. I liked rough. He was better this time than the last. When we finished up slip on a red night teddy before falling asleep. I didn't dare put underwear on under the teddy and his body responded.

"Again?" I smiled, finally numb.

"You know it," He growled rolling on top of me. I spent my night with very little sleep.