My issues started when I was too young to even know they were problems.
I didn't trust people,
I thought I knew better than everyone else,
I was too proud of myself.
Once I got into middle school, these problems changed.
On top of not trusting other people, I didn't trust myself.
I went from knowing everything to being unsure of everything.
But the worst one was the transition from loving myself to hating myself
and wishing I could be anyone but me.
In high school these things just continued to get worse.
I felt like a burden to everyone.
Like I was incapable of loving, which made me impossible to love.
Like everyone around me would be happier if I was dead.
I always thought this was my fault. That I had done something wrong.
I'm in college now and I'm trying to teach myself how to love me again.
I'm trying to learn how to let people in and be a normal human.
I'm trying my absolute best to be the exact opposite of the seed you planted in me.
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If You Have a Shitty Parent
PoetryI don't know anyone who doesn't have a bad relationship with at least one of their parents. These are for those of us who deserved better.