Can't remember the last tine I had a good nights sleep
Now I spent all my nights cooped up inside my bed with my best friend
Insomnia
Insomnia was once an acquaintance that would pass by once a couple of months when I felt stressed.
Now she has become my closest friend
She awaits for me. Every. Single. Night
As I write this she is here right beside me
Holding me, hugging me, suffocating me
I close my eyes trying to ignore her but she pops up in my head
Screaming, dancing, singing cacophonous chants
I cannot get a single moment of piece
So I give in
I give up trying to get her out of my bed
I embrace her I talk to her tell her about my day my thoughts
I know she's not going to answer me
She only says on thing constantly
"Do you know why I am here?"
No
Do you know why I am here?!!
NO
DO. YOU. KNOW WHY I AM HERE??!!
NO NO NO!! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE
But she never does
She always stays waiting for my answer
An answer that I cannot give to her
For I am afraid to speculate why she is here
I am terrified of the answer and what that could mean
For me
YOU ARE READING
pursuit of happiness
RandomSome scrambled messy thoughts of mine that I woukd never dare express publicly so I put thdm into digital paper anonymously.
