Never thought I'd find you

Chapter 3

    We end up walking for about an hour. We don't really talk, so it's sorta weird.
    "Follow me."  He says as he grabs my wrist and pulls me into a crowded Japanese noodle shop.
    "W-What ara we doin here?"
    "Eating. What does it look like we're doing."
    I make a confused face. "B-But I don have any mooney."
    "Don't worry about it."  He started to walk towards the counter to order.
    I walk with him, avoiding as many people as I can.
"What would you like to order?" The cashier said in a fake happy tone.
"Hey wingy, Raman good?"
"I-uh- y-yeah it's f-fin..." the cashier looks at me weirdly. Like their trying to figure out what is wrong with me.
He pays and we walk to a table.
"Uh... I-uh nevr gotten ur name."
"Akumu Chisaki" He said, sitting at a small table.
"I'm V-..." he put his hand over my mouth and chuckled.
"Don't tell me, I wanna call you wingy."
He takes his hand off and laughs.
"H-hey this isn like a date is it?"
"I don't know wingy, is it?"
Thank god that the food arrived right then, I'm not sure I could answer that question.
Akumu broke the chop sticks in half and started eating. I try to do the same, but eating something in the middle of the day would get me in trouble.
At the same time, it would be rude for me not to eat something he bought me. She'll never know. Plus I can through it up later with the rest of it.
I look down at the bowl. I don't even realize Akumu had taken his mask off until it was too late...
I had looked up from my bowl, into that beautiful green-blue color. I think I started blushing, I couldn't help it. He's so freaking cute.

NO!
What am I saying?!
NO! NO!
I LIKE GIRLS! NOT BOYS!
OH GOD! GOD NO!
I'm starting to panic. And for some reason. I didn't want him to know. So I ran to the bathroom.
By the time I got there I was sobbing.

Why?