Never thought I'd find you

Chapter 5

Hewo there's going to be a few curse words just as a warning, nothing to bad tho... k bye

    You would be if you ended it
    "That's a lie"
    I keep repeat those words in my mind... over... and over... until I can't handle it

    One...

    Two...

    Three...

   I continue the pattern until my arm is full of blood... and the knife won't cut efficiently anymore.
Stab through the skin... let's see how much your chest bleeds.
    "This is the closest thing your getting so shut up!"
All right fine.
I hide the knife back in my drawer, there's also a list folded up.

Things wrong with Vincent Takahashi:
1. He's too quiet
2. He's always sleeping in class
3.he doesn't let anyone see his skin
4. He's way too thin (no girl will ever like that)
5.he flinched at the slightest little thing
6.he cry's too much
7.he can't pronounce ANYTHING right
8. He's a stuttering mess and no one likes him

I found that on my locker one day in sixth grade. There not wrong I guess... though I could think of a million other things to go on that damn list.

"VINCENT! GET YOUR ASS DOWN HERE RIGHT NOW!" Oh great mother wants me.
"Yes ma'am?"
"Make breakfast and clean this shit up!"
"Yes ma'am." I say flatly avoiding eye contact. She slaps me.
"LOOK AT ME WHEN IM TALKING TO YOU!"
I continue to look at my feet. That really pisses her off. She gets her face super close to mine and I smell alcohol... perfect that just means I'm about to get my ass whooped so I just embrace what's about to happen.
    I shut my eyes and hear her getting out the magic ruler. Metal edges... super ...duper ...sharp.
    "Hands now!"
    I hold out the palms of my hands out to her.

One...

Two...

Three...

    Just like earlier that pattern continues...
    She stops. Thank god. "Go to school I don't want to see you!"She tells in a cold voice.
Hey you get to see him again!
    Thank you for actually being positive for once! I say in my head.
Bandage those up! You don't want him thinking you self harm do we?
    "But we do- whatever."
    I get the bandages from my bathroom and start wrapping my arms starting from the end of my palm all the way up to my elbows.
Hoodie don't forget that!
    We wear a uniform idiot.
Ok! Ok!

I walk out of the house, bandaging my arms wasted most of the time still left until I had to go. But I got to avoid cleaning, and cooking, and talking to people. So that's a good thing I guess.

    "EY! WINGY!" I know that voice, I start panicking. My breath getting fast and irregular.
    "Stop panicking will ya. Your kinda hurting my feelings a little."
    "S-Sorry!" I yell out. Reeeeal nice of you dude I scold myself.
I leave for ten minutes and this is what happens... really!
    "Why are there bruises on your face?" I can tell I look nervous, 'cuz he hugs me.
    Why is he hugging my? It's nice but. . . I pull away and start to get a panic attack. I've had so many I can tell when I'm about to have one. Isn't that sad. Just poor stupid Vincent who gets beaten everyday of his life! So much he just wants an out! So much that he can't feel the pain on the outside anymore so much. . .
    He just wants to end it all.

"Wingy?"

Oh look an update cuz I had to fix some things :/