***(Lilyanne's P.O.V)***
I barely slept at night, I couldn't escape my own thoughts. I feel like I did something wrong. All I could think was 'I'm to young.' and 'I wasn't ready.' I can't believe that I did that. I could have gotten pregnant. I can't do that to everyone. I know what happened to Carl's mom and I don't want that to happen to me. I will just ingnore him for a bit and maybe all of these thoughts will go away. I can get busy taking care of Judith and going on runs and helping out around here.
I heard movment and relised that Maggie had waken up. "Hey Maggie." "Hey Lilyanne. Wanna go get something to eat?" "Sure." We got dressed and went to the cafeteria to get some food. Glenn walked up to Maggie and kissed her on the cheek. "Good morning baby." he said to her and sat down. I saw Carl walk in with his dad behind him trying to tell him something. He spotted us and started walking our way "Maggie wanna take watch?" "Sure thing." I grabbed her arm and pulled her out to the guard tower.
We went into the tower and sat down with our guns and binoculars. "What's wrong with you lately Lilyanne?" "I feel like I did the wrong thing. I shouldn't have done that." "Done what?" Maggie asked with worry clear in her voice. "I feel like I made the wrong decision. I shouldn't have ran away with cowboy and I shouldn't have had sex with him." I put my head down on the little table that's in the corner and sighed. "Oh Lil. If you thought you weren't ready you could have told Carl. Did he force you into it?! Did he make you have sex with him?!" I jumped and lifted my head. "No! No Mags, I swear he didn't." I set my gun on the table along with her own, I looked her straight in the eyes. "I thought it was a good idea at the time. I thought that we were good toghether. Now I feel like if I ignore this it will go away, if I ignore him he'll go away. But I know that it's not that easy."
After we talked Maggie told me that I should go talk to Carl about it. I walk into our cell and see him sitting there. "What's wrong cowboy?" He looked up and patted the bed. "Come sit here." I walked to the bed and sat next o him. "Lilyanne is something wrong? Did I do something?" "You didn't do anything wrong. But we did." "What are you talking about?" "We shouldn't have had sex. It felt right at the time but we're to young. I could have gotten pregnant." He leaned in and hugged me. "I'm sorry cowboy. I really like you. But I'm scarred."
