Random Ass Stories

I was anxious or whateva

My hands tremble as I type in the three letter word that can make or break my relationship with him. H-E-Y. My heart is racing a mile a minute as I contemplate pressing the button with the word send imprinted on a tiny block in the bottom right corner of my phone. My breaths start to slow down but the feeling of dread seeps into my body like a mop absorbing water. Is this even worth it? I ponder sweating profusely scared to even move from the comfort of my own bed. My feet start to tingle itching to get up and distract myself from completing, what some would call, a 'menial task'. Thoughts themat go buzzing through my mind are telling me to wait for the appropriate time to text him. I lay flat on my bed facing the ceiling and let out a small sigh. Why do I have to think so hard about saying hello to a person? Why can't I be normal and not have these irrational fears? A single tear rolls down my cheek as I place my thumb on the 'send' button and remove it. 

"There. Now all I must do now is wait", I say patiently awaiting his message back while frantically reprimanding myself in my head for even considering texting him.
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