attempts to get over you

Attempt 1: Day 6

2:15pm

I was just done doing my stressful exam. I talked to my friend about the question and somehow it makes me hungry and ask them to eat outside. While I was walking to the canteen, I open my phone just to check what time was it.

"Where are you?!"

He. Texted. Me.

This is actually sooner than I thought. He usually try to reach me out after 2 weeks but it's... 6 days.

I decided to not think about it too much because I'm with my friend, so why didn't I have some fun?

But as soon as I'm alone, he goes back again into my mind.

After 2 hours of his message, I finally reply to him. I know he won't answer me right away because he's busy. Well at least that's what he told me.

After a few chat, I realized that he actually don't understand that I was mad at him. He told me he was just joking a few days ago.

But did he understand that I'm actually hurt?

Did he understand that I'm still trying to not loving him again?

Why is he so dumb?

I'm always too caught up with my fantasies about him. About him changing his personality for me.

I have to understand that it won't happen.