Spiders and Guilt

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~Xella's pov~

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~Xella's pov~

Mystery has always been my favorite genre.....when it's not with three annoying five year olds, a half-tranquilized two year old and a grumpy, glaring mummy who sounds like she came straight out of a tomb by your side.

Yes I'm talking about Xavier, Ruby, Skylar, Reagan and Raven. As to how it came to all of us going on this small mission when I could have gotten this over and done with in ten minutes for the most.....well lets just say I had no choice since nobody here can possibly keep there mouth shut to save there lives.

You see, while I was doing my lovely research, somebody, meaning Xavier, decided to try testing the strength of my poor, innocent door-which I still don't know what it did to him-and so almost breaking it down to tell/yell to me that and I quote 'THERE IS A MONSTER TRYING TO KILL MY SISTERS'. Me being the curious cat followed his directions to see what all the commotion was about only to find out they-being Skylar, Reagan and Rudy-was cooped up on a table in the corner of the living room because there was a spider practically a mile away from them and to add to that, it was crawling in the opposite direction of them.

The funny part is, it wasn't even a big spider.

After running the poor thing, who didn't even do anything to them yet they wanted to kill it, and being accused of being responsible of the deaths of the idiots when the spider devours their soul at night, according to them, while they still feared the idea of even touching the ground, I retreated to my room to continue my research, finding Xavier gazing out at the astonishing view of the evergreen forest through the floor to ceiling window in my room with his hands buried deep within his pockets. It was almost dark out with rain clouds flooding the sky, casting a dark shadow over his handsome features.

My heart sped up as I was afraid he'd find out about my research. As much as I trust him, he's one of my best friends and I wouldn't want to risk putting him in any danger because I couldn't protect him. I will never be able to live with myself after that.

"Xel. We're best friends right?" He asks as if sensing my presence.

His unusual mysterious demeanor capturing my attention as I replied cautiously. "Of course we are, Xavier. Why would you ask that?" 

"Then why do I get the feeling that you're hiding something?" His face blank as he turned to face me slowly, raising a questioning eyebrow. 

That question alone sent my heart racing, and my mind on a while goose chase for a lie only to come up blank as usual when it comes to this topic. I've never really been one to lie, couldn't do it to save my life until three years ago. Then I began teaching myself to lie, knowing fully well I'd need it from then on to save the people I love. Normally, I would've been able to create a lie in a heartbeat when speaking to anyone else.....but not my friends, they know me too well.

I sighed, reaching my hand up to rub my tired eyes. "Look, Xavier....I'm really tired. Maybe we can talk about this another time?" He looked hurt for a second making me regret dismissing his attempts but then covered it up with a blank expression. 

"I know there's something bothering you, Xel. Why wont you tell us? If not all of us then me....Do you not trust enough?"I couldn't bare the look of pain in his deep blue eyes as he whispered the last question so I looked away.

"Of course I trust you." My voice barely above a whisper.

"Then why aren't you able to even look at me right now? You may not think I notice but I know all those times when you send Raven to tell us why you've practically gone missing for hours are lies. I've noticed how you suddenly stopped going down to the cellars years ago." He made his way over to me, taking one of my hand in his and placing the other gently on my chin, tilting my head up to meet his eyes.

"I've noticed how you never talked about your past and whenever someone brought up the topic, you would get all tense. I've noticed all of that Xella.... What I don't know is why? Why are you trying to hide from the world, Xella? Does it have something to do with your past? If it does then why wont you tell any of us?"

I turned my head away from him and let out a shaky breath, willing myself not to let the pain of hurting them wash over me then I whispered steadily, "Because ignorance is the only way I can protect you," concluding our discussion.

When he realizes that, that's all he's going to get out of me, he sighed and stepped back. As he was about to exit my almost broken door, he glanced back saying, "I'll have Ruby locate the author you're looking for and when she finds them, I'm coming with you to get them along with the rest of the gang."

 Already feeling the guilt crushing me from our conversation, I didn't protest, knowing even I wouldn't be able to stop them when it came to adventures.

 Already feeling the guilt crushing me from our conversation, I didn't protest, knowing even I wouldn't be able to stop them when it came to adventures

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Hey guys sorry for the wait I've been a little too caught up with books lately anyway enjoy and don't for get to vote comment and follow byeee.


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