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Labyrinth

This is the day she had been dreading, All her life after losing Tzuyu.

Today's the day; November 21st.

"You ready?" Momo smiled as she swung her arm around her best friend's shoulder as they stepped out of the car. "I guess" she sighed as she waved at the cameras that surrounded them. "Look there's Jeongyeon Unnie" Momo waved her arms furiously at the couple standing near the entrance of the huge hall, Guests were still arriving so they had some time to catch up.

"Oh, You're here Sana?" Nayeon asked, "Of course!" she cheered but she was feeling anything but happy right now. "There's Jihyo!" everyone turned around as Jihyo approached them smiling brightly, "I really can't believe this is happening" She grinned,

"You guys know how it feels to get married, Unlike us" Momo directed this sentence at Nayeon, Jeongyeon and Jihyo. "Well, It's time you get a proper girlfriend too!" Jihyo laughed.

They all joked for a while as they waited for the rest of their friends to arrive, that being Chaeyoung, Mina and Dahyun.

"Didn't Mina and Chaeyoung arrive here yesterday?" Daniel asked as he looked around for them, "There they are!" He pointed at the entrance as the two approached, Walking towards them hand-in-hand, Dahyun following up right behind them.

"Mina got prettier!" Nayeon laughed loudly as she hugged the ballerina. "Chaeyoung just got shorter" Jeongyeon chuckled as she ruffled the younger girl's hair receiving a cute glare,

"Hey, Guys!" Dahyun almost-shouted, receiving a hug from everyone and a pat on the butt by Nayeon. "I'm so hungry right now" she claimed as they walked to the seats, "Did you just come here to eat?" Chaeyoung chuckled, "Of course not! But the menu is good" she replied.

"Our Tzuyu's all grown-up now" Jihyo sighed as they took a seat. "I remember her being this new kid from Taiwan, Didn't knew a word in Korean" Momo smiled as she recalled their childhood,

"Remember when you shared a bunk bed with her during that overnight trip?" Mina laughed, "Haha, I claimed the top bunk and she never said a word about it! Then she kept hitting her head and got a bruise!".

They all broke in fits of laughter, hearing the latter's story. "Get ready there she is, Our Yoda!" Jihyo announced as they turned their heads to get a better view of the bride and her grandfather walk down the aisle, Her broken smile plastered on her face.

Sana exhaled deeply as she watched the groom take her hands. Their eyes met, but it wasn't long before she hastily looked away.

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She never remembered anything that happened after that other than the blurred memories of her leaving the wedding earlier than she intended to then crying pathetically at a lonely bar in a busy city. She woke up in a different bed in the morning, a strange girl lying beside her. She remembers seeing the name "eunha" written on a business card as she walked out of the apartment.

Broken Sex was always better drunk.

A year has passed, she became worse. Living like this is normal now. Letting a cape of endless blackness wrap around her soul.

She was destined to be broken. How could she be so selfish? She wasn't the same Bubbly, happy little girl that she saw in the mirror every day. That image had disappeared, she became this failure, a disappointment, someone that was always the second choice, the side-serving.

Her friends?

She doesn't blame them. They're too busy with their own love life. Nayeon has Jeongyeon, Jihyo has Daniel and Mina has Chaeyoung. Momo's a little helpful, she's willing to fuck her during the lonely nights, but at some point, even she's not there, practicing new choreo or at a party in the corner of the world. Now she lays her in the midst of a cold night in December, empty bottles of alcohol lying around her.

Just one of those nights she begs for death, She could just go inside, back to the warmth but somehow feeling the cold wind pierce through her bones is yet 'exciting'.

She suffers to live but dies for the pain.

She couldn't keep the thoughts bottled up anymore. She needs to lose them, how she wishes she had Amnesia. But that'd be impossible, wouldn't it? One thing left to try;

Ecstasy.

She admits it ends quickly but in the end, the high was worth the pain.

She rummages for her phone as she steps back in her house, pulling on a coat along the way before dialling certain digits. "Dahyun" her voice raspily comes out as the girl on the end picks the up the phone, "Fuck me...Make me forget. Would you?".

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She finds herself in the same situation again. The feeling had ended a while ago, now she laid her eyes wide open in Dahyun's lap.

The girl who's willing to and has sacrificed her happiness for her, the girl who lets her demons unleash on herself, The same girl who deserves the world fell in love with a loser like Minatozaki Sana. Stroking her hair casually, pretending she wasn't hurt by the fact that she didn't scream her name, instead of a woman who never loved Sana back. "T-Tzuyu!" she screamed as she came, falling into the labyrinth of euphoria, too high to realize her words as Dahyun lets her ride her orgasm out.

But Sana isn't hurt. No 'hurt' is such a small word for reality.

She's destroyed, Obliterated, desecrated, Shattered, annihilated, Demolished.