My possessive husband

chapter 18

pooja's pov

i heard somewhere that bible says true love never fails if it fails then it wasn't true love ...its been a month after that so called brave action of mine i slapped him too hard for what? just because i love him now and i want him to be with him forever but he will never love me back....i was angry on my destiny why i cant live happily with love of my life like all Normal people do ...why i have to face odds in life always...why me? i dont have any answer to these questions maybe i am not good enough maybe i dont deserve to be happy ...

after that he started ignoring me like i dont exist at all ...or i should say i started hiding from him ... I can't face him after that... he will come home late sometime he dont even come he leave home before i wake up... i know i hurted Him too bad and i deserve every ounce of hate he have for me now but i was Angry i was hurt too badly he was making me feel wanted at same time so unwanted to be loved...

all my life i ever wanted is to be with someone who loves me who is ready to do everything to get my heart but i never knew i will fall in love with a person who don't have a heart ...

in this one month of our hide & seek game i started working again in aryan's company he don't know about it till now ...in this time i got to know about my would be fiance too ... and guess what he is none other than aryan

i dont know how he got information about our contract marriage then he met my parents and told them that he want to marry me even after knowing that i am in contract marriage with a billionaire for some money ...he convinced them so well that they think now he is saviour in my pathetic life

i like aryan he is really sweet caring for me he is like ideal guy every girl would want as husband but I don't feel i can love him ever... my heart is bound by only him ...all i ever want is to take all pain he have in his torn heart ...

i close my eyes looking at his picture in my phone feeling ache of my heart in my eyes i sleep by looking at his pictures daily.... i miss him so badly but its better for us to be apart ... we were never meant to be together..

Harsh's pov

"what the hell you guys doing? i pay you for just flirting with my secretary?"

i rammed file hard on my desk looking angrily at my managers they are getting in my nerves so much these days

"Sir, we are sorry  we got information about owner of that company ... Maya singh"

i look at rohan in utter shock i can't believe i heard her name again in my life ... my ex wife Maya ...

i close my eyes shut trying to calm down rage as i hear rohan dismissing my staff ... for a month we are working hard for a project for a london based company now that company wants us to collaborate with a start up company based in London so that it will finance that company and help to grow in market ... if we want to continue our expansion in London we don't have any option but to work with that company i groan loudly throwing glass on floor

"DAMMN IT!!!"

i yell thinking about consequences of this deal ...i have to meet her again..i have to see her again ... that girl whom i loved more than my life ...that girl for whom i was on road ... i feel rohan holding me i didn't knew i was on floor now he picked me up making me sit back on couch

"harsh ...i know it is difficult for you than i can ever imagine but you can't let your past ruin your present ...you worked hard all these years now again you cant let her ruin your life"

he says looking at me with eyes full of concern ...i don't know how i would manage myself if this bastard wasn't with me

"no one knows other than you ... how much i suffered to get at this position ...no Matter how many hotels i own now i still feel that cold in my body when i used to sleep on footpath ... i still remember taste of food i ate from dustbins... i still remember how much i loved ..."

i feel like hundred knifes are stabbed in my heart still i wasn't bleeding i was just screaming in unstoppable pain ...

i drank a lot than i ever did to feel pain less ...but more i drink more i think about my memories with her ... somehow rohan managed to drop me at my flat i was going through Living room just then i dropped flower case i tried to keep my composure still but it was hard in this condition ... i heard someone coming towards me ...i smell familiar odour i was missing like hell she held me before i can fall again her petite hands were holding my weight like its nothing ...her beautiful black eyes were looking through my soul like she wants to read my mind ...

"what happened harsh... you hurted yourself"

she examines my hand which was bleeding now because i was squeezing empty beer bottle in my hand i didn't realized ... i hear her crying asking me what i was thinking but i ignored her maybe pain in my heart is too much that it consumed every other pain

she did first aid on my wound making me lay on my bed i feel her removing my shoes then socks i feel her soft hands rubbing my feet vigorously

"go to your room now ... i dont need you!!"

i told her rudely i dont want her to feel sorry for my pathetic self ...i don't want to look so vulnerable in front of anyone ...i can't break myself again ...

"am not going anywhere you have fever...you hurted yourself so bad...you look so ..... broken"

she says broken word with so much sympathy in her voice i shut my eyes tight as she sits near me I can't control my emotions anymore i pull her close with such a force that she hit my chest hard i hug her so tightly like i want to burst myself all into her ...

i dont remember for how long i was holding her like that i look at her face which was now covered with tears i feel her fingers wiping my eyes ... i was crying? how thats possible ...

"i want to know harsh... tell me"

she says holding my face in her hands ruffling my hairs as she keep my head on her shoulder rubbing my back... i feel like my all energies are draining

"we were together from our childhood...same school...same family parties...her father and my father were best friends...it was going really well until something happened between them my father said her family ditched him in business which made him suffer a huge loss After that we would meet in just college... i was in love with her since i learned spelling of LOVE ... we grown up together loving eachother but we knew our families will never accept this relation ...one day her brother saw us together ... they abandoned her from going out not even college they started looking alliances..she was just 18 still ...
all her dreams were going to be shattered i knew she wants to study make her own identity... so i convinced her  to elope with me ... we came Mumbai ...did marriage in a temple just rohan was there ... i started working as a waiter , bartender , sweeper or what not i did everything i could do to keep her happy I enrolled her in college leaving my studies .. we were living happily i got love of my life ... but i never knew love isn't enough to live she had her needs which i wasn't able to fulfill...6 months passed somehow ... one day i saw her outside a clinic when she came back i asked her what happened to her ... she said she was there to abort kid .. she said it so bluntly like it was nothing just a piece of shit she got rid of now ... i couldn't control and i slapped her ...it made me devastated that i was unable to notice Police picking me throwing me in jail i was beaten for a week ... she called her parents and told them that it was my fault ...she told to police that i used to beat her ... no one listened to me ... no one was there to protect me ... my family just took me out of jail but refused to accept me back because i became shame for their reputation... i was on road with nothing left on my body ..."

i dont know when i collapsed in her lap but last thing i felt were her tears dropping on my cheeks...