It's been already 3 years. I just can't believe it. I swear time flies so fast. Even tho i didn't know you, even tho i didn't bother to check on shinee those news from two years ago shocked me completely. I wanted to cry so bad but i couldn't cry bcs i was so shocked. I didn't know that this tragedy will help me getting closer to Shinee and to you, even tho my dear Jonghyun i didn't know you, i didn't meet you, from the moment when i discovered you, it felt like home. It felt like there was my place, there was my comfort.
Every year i'm getting scared that people may forget about you, that no one will remember you and how you were, and they'll remember just an idol who committed suicide bcs he was depressed. I'm scared that people will forgert your beautiful voice. I'm scared that people will forget your beautiful personality, and how kind you were.
It's been three years since you're gone and everyday i think about you and tell myself if you was still alive, was i still a shinee fan? Was i still a fan of yours?
Thankyou so much for giving us so many beautiful things. So many comforting words jjong, you helped so many people with their problems, even tho we couldn't save you, you did save us. Even after your death you're still doing it. So thank you for that. I'm really grateful for what you've done on this earth. Thankyou for your existence.
You did well, you did a good job today, i hope you rest well and i hope you're at peace at least.
Thankyou so much for your bright smile
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