When the Moon shines

How do I explain

*Next morning*

I don't know how but I seemingly somehow still got to bed last night. After getting up I just randomly pick a hoodie and some skinny jeans out of my closet, do my business in the bathroom, and sneak out of the house to walk to school, its only six in the morning but I don't care.

My stomach is growling loudly, I haven't a lot in the last few days, I just didn't feel like it.

As I'm walking down the street, I suddenly see Griffins Car pulling up next to me, he rolls down the window and says: "you do know it's only six in the goddamn morning, like what on earth are you doing out on the streets?"

I shrugged, I didn't want his pity, I didn't want him to care, I just want to be left alone goddamn it.

"Get in the car Ash, I'm serious, now come on..."

I just kept on walking, ignoring him.

He got out, running after me: "FUCKING HELL, you are going to stop right now and at least talk to me, you are as stubborn as a fucking donkey!"

Him screaming made me flinch away, I was terrified, did I make him this mad, would he hurt me because I did? what was he going to do to me... I just wanted to run away, but, I stayed, I decided to not run away for once, I looked at him and said:" Why are you even out here during this time of the day?"

"Uhm, I, uhm couldn't sleep anymore and went out for a smoke, but then I saw you"

"Can I have one?" "What, a cigarette? No, that's bad for you"

I look at him sternly and he sighs pulling out a pack, taking one out for himself and handing me one too. I do have a lighter in my pocket, so I use that one instead of waiting for him to find his.

"That day you were in our backyard, when I grabbed you and you ran away, there was blood on my hand, where did that come from?"

I froze. "Ash?"

"Huh, oh, uhm yes I don't know where that came from"

"Are you sure? I wasn't bleeding, and I only grabbed your arm, are you hurt?"

"No, no, it's alright, I'm not hurt"

"I don't believe you"

He left it at that, but I am sure he would at some point get back to it.

We stand next to each other in silence, just smoking.

I hate cigarettes, I hate the taste and the smell, but I love smoking, consciously breathing in and out, watching the smoke flow away.

What are we goanna do now? Just wait till school starts or will he go back home? Will he try to make me talk?

"Ash... Hey Ash, you were gone again, are you okay?"

I just nod

"No, you are not, come on, we can skip school for the day, my dad will call for us and we can talk more"

"No, I have to go to school!"

"Why?"

"They will call my mom, even if your dad calls in, she will notice"

"And? She won't rip your head off, will she?"

"She will"

"Then we just gotta be a little more careful"

I don't want to make him mad by continuing telling him off, so I just say "Hm, okay I guess"

His face lights up "Yay, okay let's go"