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Y/N= your name, you.
Billie=Billie eilish, her, she.
Mom= Your mom.
it was the middle of summer and one of your best friends had died from a car accident this morning. You didn't want to tell billie (your gf.) because it was a week before tour and you didn't want her worrying about you.
you sat in the corner of your room sobbing into your knees not knowing what to do and who to tell, it was 3 hours later and you had just been sat crying clueless of what to think.
she was one of your besties you literally spoke the night before you didn't even get to say goodbye.
"m-mom." you says as she walks into the room.
"honey i have just heard the news i'm so sorry." she says trying to comfort you.
"it will be okay y/n she's in a better place now."
you wanted to tell billie. you new she'd help you but you just couldn't bring yourself to it you didn't want to stress her more since she has tour on the way.
"d-don't tell billie." you say as another tear falls onto your hand.
"why honey she'll be really comforting." your mom says confused.
"b-because i don't want her worrying about me." you say sobbing.
"awh baby i'll let you tell her when you want then she said she'll be round at 4pm though.
"o-oh ok."
"do you want some space."
"yes please."
"alright i actually have to go out i'll be back at 6pm."
"a-alright."
"bye honey!"
"bye mom."
your mom leaves the house and you feel like screaming you don't know what to do you don't want to worry billie but then if she finds out she'll be mad you didn't tell her.
you decide to climb into bed for a nap because you just can't take your mind off of you best friend.
you wake up at 3.40 and instantly start crying again you were just so lost you didn't know what to do.
you see a text from billie on your phone: hi baby i'll be there at 4pm i hope your doing well!!
you text back: i'm doing amazing baby girl i can't wait to see you.
that was such a lie you were awful you felt like dying. You new you would have to try to hold your self together when billie arrived.
*knock knock*
"it's me baby." billie says sweetly
i have to not cry and hold it together ok lets get go.
"hi." you say letting her in and gesturing her up into your room.
"hi mama."
"h-hi." you say starting to shake a little
"hey are you ok baby." billie says worried.
"yeah i'm ok." you say lying.
"are you sure." she says concerned
"yeah."
"alright i mean do you wanna watch a movie." billie says knowing something was up.
"yeah sure."
you snuggle up to billie but feel like dying you just wanted to tell her but you just couldn't.
the movie finished and it was getting late.
"you wanna go to bed baby its getting late." billie says as she climbs off the sofa.
" yeah ok." you say still trying to hold your self together you new you wouldn't be able to for too much longer.
you and billie climb in bed
"i-i need to go to the toilet i'll be back in a minute."
"okay baby." billie says seeing there was something wrong.
you run up and lock the bathroom door behind you and collapse on the floor bringing you head to your knees sobbing not knowing if you should tell her or what to do you missed your best friend so much.
billie heard faint sobs coming from them bathroom so she ran to the bathroom door.
*knock knock*
"baby can i come in."
"you unlocked the door and jump into her arms letting your tears fall onto her shoulder."
"oh oh baby come here shh." billie says hugging you tightly.
"i-i." you say crying into her.
"shh baby let it all out." billie says running her hands through your hair.
"i-i-i'm so sorry m-my best friend died in a car crash th-this morning."
"oh baby i'm so sorry." she says comforting you
"why didn't you tell me before angel." she says squeezing you still in a hug.
"i-m sorry i didnt want to worry you."
"don't worry i'm not mad to you." billie says rubbing your back and going to sit on your bed. you both sit down on your bed and speak.
"i-i'm sorry f-for this." you say as you look into her eyes and your tears fall onto the covers of your bed.
"baby don't be sorry it's not you fault."billie says wrapping her arms around your waist.
you hug her tightly finally calming down
"hey billie baby why are you crying." you say seeing her tear up.
"b-because i hate seeing you like this i can't take it." she says tears falling onto her soft cheek
"oh baby."
you both pull into a tight hug crying onto eachother climbing under the covers of the bed.
"i love you billie."
"i love you too y/n." billie says holding your waist and kissing you on the forhead.
"i'm sorry for not telling you." you whisper.
"angel never feel like you can't tell me something you can tell me anything, don't think your being in the way. your not your my girlfriend your my responsibility."
"i love you so much baby." you say
"i love you even more."
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